Viola's vanity : $b or, A bitter expiation — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Viola's vanity : $b or, A bitter expiation
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“Nonsense! I have taken a bad cold, that is all,” returned the young
girl, unwilling for her aunt to learn what had happened.
“I am sorry for that, Viola, for I hoped you would feel like going with
me to the Capitol this morning. I heard that there would be speaking in
the House of Representatives today on the Cuban war, and I should like
to hear it.”
Viola knew that she should spend a wretched day moping at home alone,
so she answered quickly:
“I will go with you, auntie, for I would like to hear the speeches,
too. I dare say it will not make my cold any worse.”
“Not if you wrap up warmly, dear, and wear a veil; so I will go and get
ready,” returned the kind, unsuspecting old lady, hurrying out again.
Viola dabbled her face with the fragrant waters till all the signs of
tears were gone; but she could not smile away the brooding sadness that
lay beneath the dark fringe of her lashes--the sadness of trouble and
remorse.
She dressed herself carefully in her warmest attire, for the midwinter
days were very keen, and she and her aunt set forth for the Capitol, a
little gleam of interest flashing into her eyes as she remembered that
she was likely to see Philip Desha there.
It was six weeks since she had seen the young congressman. He seemed
to have faded from her life, though not from her thoughts.
If Desha had wished to keep himself vividly in Viola’s memory he could
not have adopted a better plan than this absence and reserve.
The angry pique that had caused her first interest in him only
increased with time, and the smart of his coldness made her wish more
ardently to win him, so strange are the contradictions of the human
heart.
But pride forbade her seeking him, so she had let him pass passively
from her life until today, when in her aunt’s company she sought the
Capitol, knowing that she was almost certain to see him there, and
feeling her heart leap wildly at the thought, while she said to herself:
“Oh, how clever it was in papa to get that dreadful case of George
Merrington so nicely covered up, and how thankful I am that people will
never know the real truth about it. I would not like for Professor
Desha to find it out. How he would despise me!”
So it happened that as the young congressman was nearing the close of
his brilliant speech that day, some magnetic influence made him raise
his blue eyes to the crowded gallery and meet the rapt, intense gaze
of Viola’s splendid, luminous gray orbs fixed on him with an eager
interest that almost robbed him of the last iota of self-possession.
She saw him start and almost falter at the recognition, and wondered
why it could move him so.
When he left the hall awhile later she lost all interest in the
animated scene, and persuaded her aunt to leave also; but it was a
great surprise to her as well as to him when they came together, face
to face, in the corridor, owing to the delay caused by his spending a
few moments talking in the lobby.