Viola's vanity : $b or, A bitter expiation — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Viola's vanity : $b or, A bitter expiation
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She would not sing again, but she played them some rare instrumental
pieces--two very gay and brilliant, one exquisitely sad and sweet; and
this last one stayed in Desha’s heart with the song, because of their
melting pathos, so different from anything formerly associated with the
lovely, volatile belle. He had not believed that her feelings were deep
enough for the pathos to which she had given expression through her
voice and touch.
“Love has taught her everything,” he thought, with unconscious, bitter
envy of George Merrington.
“I must be going presently, because I shall look in at another
reception tonight,” Mrs. Wellford said, arousing him from something
like a trance of thought. “I wish you would find my husband for me,
Phil. He has stolen off to some quiet corner to smoke, I expect. Tell
him I am going in ten minutes.”
“Yes,” he answered, absently, moving away from her side, and wondering
why Viola had so suddenly left the room just as he was thinking of
bidding her good-night.
He wandered about through the crowded rooms, wondering where he should
find Mr. Wellford, who was a successful patent attorney devoted to his
business, and secretly bored by gay society, though his wife dragged
him into it willy-nilly. Having made his bow to his hostess, he was
usually to be found in some secluded spot, seeking solace in a good
cigar, and all the happier if he could find some congenial soul to
share his pleasure and exchange good stories with him.
He was not in the thronged drawing-room, nor library, nor supper-room,
so Desha went along the wide hall, seeking all the open doors, thinking
perchance to blunder on a smoking-room.
The scent of a Havana came to him suddenly, promising speedy success,
so he stopped abruptly before the half-drawn _portière_ of a small room
or alcove, with tall palms and flowering azaleas standing about in a
dim, soft light. They had, in fact, been removed here temporarily from
the over-crowded conservatory, to make room for the promenading couples
tonight.
“He is here, the vandal, with his cigar,” thought Desha, pushing back
the curtain and blundering across the threshold.
Some one was there certainly, but not Wellford, and the young man
started back, hoping his intrusion might not be observed.
Viola, laboring under strong excitement of mind, exaggerated by his
neglect and the keen pathos of her own music, had hidden herself away
here for a brief, hysterical outbreak that she could not control.
“Let me steal away awhile
From the revel to the gloom,
Let me leave that careless smile
Just outside the quiet room;
Let the tears and stifled sighs,
All day aching in my breast,
Like a tropic tempest rise,
Or volcano’s burning crest.