Viola's vanity : $b or, A bitter expiation — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Viola's vanity : $b or, A bitter expiation
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“Yes, I received your note. Of course I excused you, though I missed
you very much!” Viola cried, with her most sweetly reproachful air.
Then she gave a slight start, and added: “Dearest, how pale you are!
What is wrong? Are you ill?”
Professor Desha did indeed look pale and heavy-eyed, and his voice
sounded strange as he answered:
“I am sorry you noticed it; but--I am not feeling very well. I had a
bad night; was restless, and scarcely slept at all.”
His grave blue eyes searched her face closely, plaintively, as if some
jealous doubt haunted his mind; but the perfect tenderness and joy
of her manner were enough to dissipate any fears, and presently she
charmed him from the gray mood in which he had entered her presence.
Her gayety cost her an effort, too, for she was secretly frightened
when she saw what a shadow lurked in his grave blue eyes. She was a
coward at heart, always dreading for him to find out something she
feared for him to know.
Had she guessed what was in his thoughts, as he sat so quietly by her
side, she must have fallen down fainting at his feet in her remorse and
shame.
Ruby Wellford had played a clever card in her longing to defeat Viola,
and a thorn was planted in his manly heart that would ache there many a
day.
But he had not showed his cousin the pain he had felt, he had simply
answered:
“I am sorry for the poor young man. I dare say that Viola was more
thoughtless than wilfully wicked. She is so young, you know, and has
missed a mother’s care.”
“Philip, you do not mean that you will go on dangling after the
girl after hearing this--this appalling story!” she cried, almost
indignantly.
Then he took her hand and said, very gently and kindly:
“Ruby, you know I appreciate your kindness, and am sorry Viola has
flirted so recklessly, but--but she will never break my heart.”
“But, Phil, every one is saying that you are her latest victim.”
“Her latest and her last,” he replied, significantly; and as she cried
out that she did not understand, he added: “You have told me a secret,
and I will return your confidence. I promised Viola to keep it till
tomorrow, but I do not think she would care if I told you now--under
the circumstances.”
“What is your secret?” she cried eagerly, and he answered, proudly:
“Only this: you will receive our wedding-cards tomorrow.”
“Yours--and Viola’s! Do you mean it really, Phil?” she demanded, in
astonishment.
“Yes, it is true. We have been engaged ever since January, but Viola
wished to keep it secret to spring a great sensation on her friends.”
“She will certainly succeed, for no one ever dreamed she had a heart!”
exclaimed the lady; then noticing how very pale he had grown, she
added, repentantly: “Dear Phil, forgive me for my blundering! If I
had dreamed how matters really stood, I would rather have bitten off
the extreme end of my tongue than have tattled to you about young
Merrington.”