What form did the poetical exposition of the Eternal Return then take
in his soul? We do not know. Nietzsche did not care to talk about his
work; he liked to complete it before making announcements. However,
he wished that his friends should know the new movement in which his
thought was engaged. He addressed to Fräulein von Meysenbug a letter in
which Wagner was treated without deference, then he added a mysterious
enough promise: "If I am not illusioned as to my future, it is by my
work that what is best in the work of Wagner will be continued--and
here, perhaps, is the comical side to the adventure."
* * * * *
At the beginning of spring Friedrich Nietzsche, following out a
caprice, made a bargain with the captain of an Italian sailing
vessel bound for Messina and crossed the Mediterranean. The passage
was a terrible one, and he was sick to death. But his stay was at
first happy: he wrote verses, a pleasure which he had not known for
several years. They are impromptus and epigrams, perhaps inspired by
those Goethean sallies which Peter Gast had put to music. Nietzsche
then sought for a corner of nature and of humanity favourable to
the production of his great work: Sicily, "Curb of the world where
Happiness has her habitation," as old Homer teaches, struck him as
an ideal refuge, and, suddenly forgetting that he could not bear the
heat, he decided to stay in Messina for the whole summer. Some days of
sirocco, towards the end of April, prostrated him, and he prepared for
departure. It was in these circumstances that he received a message
from Fräulein von Meysenbug, who urged him very keenly to stop at
Rome. Rome was a natural stage on his journey, and he accepted. Why
was Fräulein von Meysenbug thus insistent? We know. This excellent
woman had never been resigned to the unhappiness of the friend whose
destiny she had vainly sought to sweeten. She knew the delicacy, the
tenderness of his heart, and often wished to find him a companion; had
he not written to her, "I tell you in confidence, what I need is a
good woman"? In the spring of this year she thought that she had found
her.[2]
This accounted for her letter. It was Fräulein von Meysenbug's habit to
do good, and her taste; but perhaps she sometimes forgot that goodness
is a difficult art in which the results of defeat are cruel.