“I wouldn’t bother myself much, if I were you, in this business. These
chaps are so clever you never know quite where you are with them. I see
plainly that was how you came to engage yourself to him. He told you of
his hopes--you wished out of the goodness and generosity of your heart
to help him on, and so--well, there you were, don’t you see?”
“That was exactly how it was,” she cried. “You are just to me. I know
now that I never loved him--ah, now I know what love is!”
“My beloved!”
“I admired him for his courage--I admired him for having got on without
any one to help him--I do so still: indeed there is a good deal that
is worthy of admiration about him--and respect--oh, heaven knows that I
respect him.”
The lover laughed. He knew that he had nothing to fear from the other
man when she began to talk of respecting him. In fact the more she
spoke in praise of the fellow the more confident he felt in her love for
himself. Girls do not talk in praise of the men they love. They simply
love them.
She went on.
“Yes, I thought--I hoped that it might be possible for me to have helped
him. Perhaps I felt flattered--every one about me was saying how clever
he was--that he was one of the coming men--that was the phrase--I think
I hate the sound of it now. But I dare say that I felt flattered...
he might have chosen some other girl, you see: such men usually choose
girls who are heiresses--and yet he chose me--I suppose I felt all
that.”
“He’ll have a chance of choosing one of the heiresses now,” said the
Real Lover grimly; “and he’ll do it, you may be certain.”
She did not respond to the laugh he gave. She felt that it would have
been in bad taste. When the second husband looks at the portrait of his
predecessor and says something jocular about the size of his ears, the
widow of the original of the picture does not usually acquiesce with a
smile, even though her late husband’s ears were as long as Bottom’s. She
thinks that, ears or no ears, he was once her gentle joy.
There was a note of reproof in Josephine’s voice as she said:
“You must do him the justice to acknowledge that he was not mercenary
when he asked me to give him my promise. We must do Mr. Clifton
justice.”
The Real Lover was better pleased than ever. He had almost reached the
chuckling point of the condition of being pleased. When a girl talks
about her desire to be strictly just towards a man she (Mr. Win-wood
felt assured) has no remnant of affection for that man. The moment a
girl becomes just towards a man she ceases to have any affection for
him. There is some chance for a man (Winwood knew) so long as a girl
is capable of treating him unjustly. The assumption of the judicial
attitude on the part of a girl means that the little god Cupid has had
the bandage snatched from his eyes, and Cupid with his eyes open might,
if provided with a jacket covered with buttons, pass for the boy at any
dentist’s door.