Thus every thing conspires to disconcert our schemes, every thing
disappoints our hopes, every thing betrays a passion which heaven
ought to sanctify! And are we always to be the sport of fortune, the
unhappy victims of delusive expectation? Shall we still pant in
pursuit of pleasure without ever attaining it? Those nuptials, which
we so impatiently expected, were first to have been celebrated at
Clarens; but the bad weather opposed it, and the ceremony was
performed in town: however we had still some hopes of a private
interview; but we were so closely beset by officious importunity, that
it was impossible for us both to escape at the same instant. At last a
favourable opportunity offers, but we are again disappointed by the
cruelest of mothers, and that which ought to have been the moment of
our felicity went near to have proved our destruction. Nevertheless, I
am so far from being abashed by these numberless obstacles, that they
serve but to inflame my resolution. I know not by what new powers I am
animated, but I feel an intrepidity of soul to which I have been
hitherto ignorant; and if you are inspired with the same spirit this
evening, this very evening I will perform my promises, and discharge
at once all the obligations of love.
Weigh this affair maturely, and consider well at what rate you
estimate your life; for the expedient I am going to propose may
probably lead us to the grave. If thou art afraid, read no farther;
but if thy heart shrinks no more at the point of a sword than formerly
at the precipice of Meillerie, mine shares the danger and hesitates no
longer. Be attentive.
Bab, who generally lies in my chamber, has been ill there three days,
and though I offered to attend her, she is removed in spite of me; but
as she is now somewhat better, possibly to-morrow she may return. The
stairs, which lead to my mother’s apartment and mine, are at some
distance from the room where they sup, and, at that hour, the rest of
the house, except the kitchen, is entirely uninhabited. The darkness
of the night will then favour your progress through the streets
without the least risk of being observed, and you are not unacquainted
with the house.
I believe I have said enough to be understood. Come this afternoon to
Fanny’s; I will there explain the rest, and give the necessary
instructions: but if that should be impossible, you will find them in
writing, in the old place, to which I consign this letter. The subject
is too important to be trusted with any person living.