O! I see the violent palpitation of thy heart! How I feel thy
transports! No, no, my charming friend, we will not quit this short
existence without having, for a moment, tasted happiness. Yet remember
that the fatal moment is environed with the horrors of death! That the
way to bliss is extremely hazardous, its duration full of perils, and
your retreat beyond measure dangerous; that if we are discovered, we
are inevitably lost, and that to prevent it fortune must be uncommonly
indulgent. Let us not deceive ourselves: I know my father too well to
doubt that he would not instantly pierce your heart, or that even I
should not be the first victim to his revenge; for certainly he would
shew me no mercy, nor indeed can you imagine that I would lead you
into dangers to which I myself were not exposed.
Remember also that you are not to have the least dependence on your
courage; it will not bear a thought: I even charge you very expressly,
to come entirely unarmed; so that your intrepidity will avail you
nothing. If we are surprized; I am resolved to throw myself into thy
arms, to grasp thee to my heart, and thus to receive the mortal blow,
that they may part us no more; so shall my exit be the happiest moment
of my life.
Yet I hope a milder fate awaits us; it surely is our due, and fortune
must at last grow weary of her injustice. Come then, soul of my heart,
life of my life, come and be re-united to thyself. Come, under the
auspices of love, and receive the reward of thy obedience and thy
sacrifices. O come and confess, even in the bosom of pleasure, that
from the union of hearts, proceed its greatest delights.
Letter LIV. To Eloisa.
Am I then arrived?----how my heart flutters, in entering this asylum
of love! Yes, Eloisa, I am now in your closet: I am in the sanctuary
of my soul’s adored. The torch of love lighted my steps, and I passed
through the house unperceived----Delightful mansion! happy place!
once the scene of tenderness and infant love suppressed! These
conscious walls have seen my growing, my successful passion, and will
now a second time behold it crowned with bliss: witness of my eternal
constancy, be witness also of my happiness, and conceal for ever the
transports of the most faithful and most fortunate of men.