I do not concern myself whether you are skilled in fencing, nor
whether you think yourself capable of contending with a man who is
famous all over Europe for his superior dexterity in that art, having
fought five or six times in his life, and always killed, wounded, or
disarmed his man. I know that in such a case as yours, people consult
not their skill, but their courage; and that the fashionable method to
be revenged of a man who has insulted you, is to let him run you
through the body. But let us pace over this _wise_ maxim; you will
tell me that your honour and mine are dearer to you than life. This,
therefore, is the principle on which we must reason.
To begin with what immediately concerns yourself. Can you ever make it
appear in what respect you were personally offended by a conversation
that related solely to me? We shall see presently whether you ought on
such an occasion to take my cause upon yourself: in the mean time, you
cannot but allow that the quarrel was quite foreign to your own honour
in particular, unless you are to take the suspicion of being beloved
by me as an affront. I must own you have been insulted; but then it
was after having begun the quarrel yourself by an atrocious affront;
and, as I have had frequent opportunities, from the many military
people in our family, of hearing these horrible questions debated, I
am not to learn that one outrage committed in return to another does
not annul the first, and that he who receives the first insult is the
only person offended. It is the same in this case, as in a rencounter,
where the aggressor is only in fault: he who wounds and kills another
in his own defence, is not considered as being guilty of murder.
To come now to myself; we will agree that I was insulted by the
conversation of my Lord B----, although he said no more of me than he
might justify. Do you know what you are about in defending my cause
with so much warmth and indiscretion? You aggravate his insults; you
prove he was in the right; you sacrifice my honour to the false
punctilios of yours, and defame your mistress to gain at most the
reputation of a good swords-man. Pray tell me what affinity there is
between your manner of justifying me and my real justification? Do you
think that to engage in my behalf with so much heat is any great proof
that there are no connections between us? And that it is sufficient to
shew your courage to convince the world you are not my lover? Be
assured, my Lord B----’s insinuations are less injurious to me than
your conduct. It is you alone who take upon yourself, by this bustle
to publish and confirm them. He may, perhaps, turn aside the point of
your sword in conflict; but never will my reputation, nor perhaps my
being, survive the mortal blow you meditate.