Eloisa : $b or, A series of original letters — Jean-Jacques Rousseau — John Shaqi
Eloisa : $b or, A series of original letters
Jean-Jacques Rousseau · en
Read over the letter of that generous Englishman; read it, my dear,
again, and again. Are you not affected by the charming picture he has
drawn of that happiness which love, peace, and virtue have yet in
store for your friend? How ravishing that union of souls! What
inexpressible delight it affords, even in the midst of remorse.
Heavens! how would my heart rejoice in conjugal felicity? And is
innocence and happiness yet in my power? May I hope to expire with
love and joy, in the embraces of a beloved husband amidst the dear
pledges of his tenderness! Shall I hesitate then a moment, and not fly
to repair my faults in the arms of him who seduced me to commit them?
Why do I delay to become a virtuous and chaste mother of an endearing
family?----Oh that my parents could but see me thus raised out of my
degeneracy! That they might but see how well I would acquit myself, in
my turn, of those sacred duties they have discharged towards me!----
And yours! ungrateful, unnatural daughter, (might they not say) who
shall discharge yours to them, when you are so ready to forget them?
Is it, by plunging a dagger into the heart of your own mother, that
you prepare to become a mother yourself? Can she, who dishonours her
own family, teach her children to respect theirs? Go, unworthy object
of the blind fondness of your doting parents! Abandon them to their
grief for having ever given you birth; load their old age with infamy,
and bring their grey hairs with sorrow to the grave.----Go, and
enjoy, if thou canst, a happiness purchased at such a price.
Good God! what horrors surround me! shall I fly by stealth from my
native country, dishonour my family, abandon at once father, mother,
friends, relations, and even you, my dear Clara; you my gentle friend,
so well beloved of my heart; you, who from our earliest infancy have
hardly ever been absent from me a day; shall I leave you, lose you,
never see you more?----Ah! no. May never----How wretched, how
cruelly afflicted is your unhappy friend! She sees before her variety
of evils; and nothing remains to yield her consolation. But my mind
wanders----so many conflicts surpass my strength and perplex my
reason: I lose at once my fortitude and understanding. I have no hope
but in you alone. Advise me; chuse for me; or leave me to perish in
perplexity and despair.
Letter LXX. Answer to the Preceding.