knowing how to conduct them to lasting felicity. What helps it, then,
to obtain one advantage at the expense of another? to gain _without_
what we lose from _within_; to procure the means of happiness, and
lose the art of employing them. Is it not better also, if we can but
enjoy one of these advantages, to sacrifice what the power of fortune
may restore, to that which once lost can never be recovered? none
should know better than I, who have imbittered all the sweets of my
life, by thinking to increase them. Let the vicious and profligate
then, who display their good fortune but keep their hearts a secret,
let them advance what they will; be assured that if there be one
instance of happiness upon earth it must be found in the breast of the
virtuous. Heaven hath bestowed on you an happy inclination for what is
virtuous and good: listen then only to your own desires, follow only
your own inclinations, and think above all on the growth of our infant
affections. So long as the remembrance of those delightful moments of
innocence shall remain, it will be impossible that you should cease to
love that which rendered them so endearing; it will be impossible the
charms of moral excellence should ever be effaced from your mind, or
that you should wish to obtain Eloisa by means unworthy of yourself.
Can anyone enjoy a pleasure for which he has lost the taste? no, to be
able to possess that which one loves, it is necessary the heart that
loved it should be still the same.
I come now to my second point: you see I have not forgot my logic; it
is possible, my friend, without love to have the sublime sentiments of
a great mind; but a love like ours supplies its flame, which being
once extinguished, the soul becomes languid; and a heart once
exhausted is good for nothing. Tell me, what should we be if we ceased
to love? is it not better to lose our existence than our sensibility?
or could you resolve to endure the life of an ordinary being, after
having tasted every delight that can ravish the heart of man? you are
going to visit populous cities, where your age and figure, rather than
your merit, will lay a thousand snares for your fidelity. Insinuating
coquetry will affect the language of tenderness, and please without
deceiving you. You will not seek love, but enjoyment; you will taste
it without love, and not know it for the same pleasure. I know not
whether you will find in another the heart of Eloisa; but of this I am
certain, you will never experience with another those ecstasies you
have tasted with her. The vacancy of your exhausted mind will forebode
the destiny I predict. Sadness and care will overwhelm you in the
midst of frivolous amusements. The remembrance of our first transports
will pursue you in spite of yourself; my image, an hundred times more
beautiful than I ever was, will overtake you. In a moment the veil of
disgust will be thrown over all your delights, and a thousand bitter
reflections rush into your mind.