depart this instant.
Letter LXXVIII. To Eloisa.
I arrived last night at Paris, and he, who once could not live two
streets length removed from you, is now at the distance of more than
an hundred leagues. Pity, Eloisa, pity your unhappy friend: had the
blood gushing from my veins, dy’d with its streams, my long, long
route, my spirits could not have failed me more; I could not have
found myself more languid than at present. O that I knew as well when
we shall meet again, as I know the distance that divides us! the
progress of time should then compensate for the length of space. I
would count every day, every hour of my life, my steps, towards
Eloisa. But that dismal career is hid in the gloom of futurity; its
bounds are concealed from my feeble sight. How painful, how terrible
is suspense! my restless heart is ever seeking, but finds you not. The
sun rises, but gives me no hopes of seeing you; it sets without
granting me that blessing. My days are void of pleasure, and pass away
as one long continued night. In vain I endeavour to rekindle my
extinguished hopes, they offer me nothing but uncertainty and
groundless consolations. Alas, my gentle friend! what evils have I not
to expect if they are to be a counterpoise to my past happiness!
But, I conjure you, let not my complaints alarm you; they are only the
cursory effects of solitude, and the disagreeable reflections of my
journey. Fear not the return of my former weakness; my heart is in
your hands, Eloisa, and while you are its support it cannot debase
itself. One of the comfortable fruits of your last letter is, that
since I find myself sustained by a double share of spirits; and though
love should annihilate what is properly mine, I should still be a
gainer; the resolution with which you have inspired me being able to
support me better than I could otherwise have supported myself. I am
convinced it is not good for man to be alone. Human minds must be
united to exert their greatest strength, and the united force of
friendly souls, like that of the collateral bars of an artificial
magnet, is incomparably greater than the sum of their separate forces.
This is thy triumph, celestial friendship! but what is even friendship
itself, compared to that perfect union of souls, which connects the
most perfect, the most harmonious amity, with ties an hundred times
more sacred? where are the men whose ideas, gross as their appetites,
represent the passion of love only as a fever in the blood, the effect
of brutal instinct? let them come to me, let them observe, let them
feel, what passes in my breast; let them view an unhappy lover
separated from his beloved object, doubtful whether ever he shall see
her more, and hopeless of retrieving his lost happiness; animated,
however, by the never dying flame, which, kindled by your beauties,
has been nourished by your mental charms, they will see him ready to
brave the rigours of adversity; to be deprived even of your lovely