self, and to cherish all those virtues that you have inspired, and
which embellish that adorable image that shall never be erazed from my
soul. O, my Eloisa, what should I be without you? informed indeed by
dispassionate reason, a cold admirer of virtue, I might have respected
it in any one. I shall now do more, I shall now be enabled to put it
zealously in practice, and, penetrated by your example, shall excite
those who have known us to exclaim:----“what happy creatures should
we be, if all the women in the world were Eloisa’s, and all the men
had hearts susceptible of their charms!”
As I was meditating during my journey, on your last letter, I formed a
resolution of collecting together all those you have written to me; as
I no longer can attend to your delightful counsel from your own mouth.
For, though there is not one which I have not learnt by heart, I love
to read them continually, and to contemplate the characters of that
lovely hand, which alone can make me happy: but the paper wears out by
degrees, and therefore, before they fall quite in pieces, I design to
copy each letter in a book, which I have already prepared for that
purpose. It is pretty large, but I provide for the time to come, and
even hope to live long enough to fill more than one volume. I set
apart my evenings for the delightful employment, and proceed but
slowly, in order to prolong so agreeable a task. This inestimable
volume I will never part with; it shall be the manual of my devotions,
my companion through the world which I am going to enter; it shall be
my antidote against the pernicious maxims of society; it shall comfort
me under my afflictions; it shall prevent or amend my errors; it shall
afford me instruction in my youth, and yield me edification in age:
the first love-letters, Eloisa, that perhaps ever were put to such an
use! With respect to your last epistle, which I have before me,
excellent as it appears to me, I find however one thing you should
have omitted. You may think it strange; but it is much more so, that
this very article should particularly regard yourself, and that I
blame you even for writing it at all. Why do you talk to me of
fidelity and constancy? you once were better acquainted both with my
passion and your own power. Ah, Eloisa, do you entertain such
changeable sentiments? what, though I had promised you nothing, should
I the sooner cease to be yours? Oh, no, it was at the first glance you
directed to me, at the first word you spoke, at the first motion of my
heart, that a flame was kindled in my soul which can never be
extinguished. Had I never seen you since that first moment, it had
been enough, it had been afterwards too late to have ever forgotten
you. And is it possible for me to forget you now? now, that,
intoxicated with my past felicity, the very remembrance of it makes me
still happy? now, that the soul, which once animated me, is fled, and
I live only by that which Eloisa hath inspired? now, that I despise