But is it so with you? can you thus alleviate the pains of absence?
can you experience the sweets of a peaceful and tender passion, that
speaks to the heart without inflaming the senses? Are your griefs at
present more prudent than were formerly your desires? the violence of
your first letter still makes me tremble. I dread those deceitful
transports, by so much the more dangerous as the imagination which
excites them, is the less subject to controul; and, I fear, lest even
your excess of love should prove injurious to the object of it. Alas!
you know not, your sensations are too indelicate to perceive how
offensive to love is an irrational homage. You do not consider that
your life is mine, nor that self-preservation leads us frequently to
destruction. Sensual man! will you never learn to love? call to mind
those peaceful, those tender sensations you once felt, and so
affectingly described. If such be the highest pleasures which even
happy lovers can taste, they are the only ones wherein those who pine
in absence are permitted to indulge themselves; and those who once
have felt them, though but for a moment, should never regret the loss
of any other. I remember the reflections we made in reading your
Plutarch, on the sensuality and depravity of taste, which debase our
nature. Were such wretched pleasures attended only with the
circumstance of their not being mutual, it were enough, we said, to
render them insipid and contemptible. Let us apply the same conclusion
to the sallies of an extravagant imagination, to which it is no less
applicable. What can the wretch enjoy whose pleasures are confined to
himself alone? his pleasures are lifeless, but thine, O love! are
animated and generous delights. It is the union of souls: we receive
more pleasure from that which we excite, than from our own enjoyment.
But, pray, tell me, my friend, in what language, or rather, in what
jargon, is the description you give me in your last letter? did you
not make use of it as an occasional display of your wit? if you intend
to repeat it in your letters to me, it will be necessary to send me a
dictionary. What is it you mean by the opinions of a garb? by a
conscience that is to be put off and on, like a livery? by laying down
maxims by the rod? how would you have a poor, simple Swiss comprehend
those sublime tropes and figures? have you not already borrowed some
of the tinsel understanding of the people you describe? take care, my
good friend, how you proceed. Do you not think the metaphors of the
chevalier Marini, which you have so often laughed at, bear some
resemblance to your own? if a garment may be said to think, in a
letter, why not that fire may sweat in a sonnet? [23]