Eloisa : $b or, A series of original letters — Jean-Jacques Rousseau — John Shaqi
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service, but what may with propriety be required in her present
situation; what may be agreeable or displeasing to her husband. We
have no business to enquire what virtue demands in such a case, the
laws of friendship are sufficient. He, who, for his own sake, could
expose his friend, deserves not to have one. When ours was unmarried,
she was at liberty; she had no body to call her to account for her
conduct, and the uprightness of her intentions was sufficient to
justify her to herself. She considered us as man and wife, destined
for each other; and, her chaste yet susceptible heart, uniting a due
regard for herself to the most tender compassion for her culpable
friend, she concealed my fault without abetting it: but at present,
circumstances are changed; and she is justly accountable to the man,
to whom she has not only plighted her vows, but resigned her liberty.
She is now entrusted not only with her own honour, but with that of
her husband; and it is not enough that she is virtuous, her virtue
must be respected, and her conduct approved: She must not only
_deserve_ the esteem of her husband, but she must _obtain_ it: if he
blames her, she is to blame: and tho’ she be innocent, she is in the
wrong the moment she is suspected; for to study appearances, is an
indispensable part of her duty.
I cannot determine precisely how far I am right in my judgment; I
leave that to you: but there is a monitor within that tells me it is
not right, my cousin should continue to be my confident; nor that she
should be the first to tell me so. I may be frequently mistaken in my
arguments, but I am convinced I am always right in the sensations on
which they are founded; and this makes me confide more in those
sensations than on the deductions of my reason.
From this consideration, I have already formed a pretence to get back
your letters, which, for fear of a surprise I had put into her hands.
She returned them with an oppression of heart, which that of mine made
me easily perceive; and which convinced me I had acted as I ought. We
entered into no explanation, but our looks were sufficiently
expressive; she embraced me, and burst into tears: the tender
sensibility of friendship hath little occasion for the assistance of
language.