Adieu, my dear friend, I would not finish my letter so soon, but am
called away. I leave you with regret, for I am at present in a
chearful disposition, and I love you should partake of my happiness.
The cause which now inspires it is, that my dear mother is much better
within these few days; she has indeed found herself so well as to be
present at the wedding, and to give away her niece, or rather her
other daughter. Poor Clara wept for joy to see her; and I----but you
may judge of my sensations, who, deserving her so little, hourly
tremble at the thoughts of losing her. In fact, she did the honours of
the table, and acquitted herself on the occasion with as good a grace
as if she had been in perfect health. Nay, it seemed to me that some
remains of languor in her disposition rendered her elegant
complacencies still more affecting. Never did this incomparable parent
appear so good, so charming, so worthy to be revered!----Do you know
that she asked Mr. Orbe concerning you several times? Although she
never speaks of you to me, I am not ignorant of her esteem for you;
and that if ever she were consulted, your happiness and mine would be
her first concern. Ah! my friend, if your heart can be truly grateful,
you owe many, many obligations!
Letter LXXIV. To Eloisa.
There, my Eloisa, scold me, quarrel with me, beat me; I will endure
every thing, but I will not cease to acquaint you with my thoughts.
Who should be the depositary of those sentiments you have enlightened,
and with whom should my heart hold converse, if you refuse to hear me?
I give you an account of the observations I have made, and of my own
opinions, not so much for your approbation, as correction; and the
more liable I am to fall into error, the more punctual I should be in
my applications to your judgment. If I censure the manners of the
people in this great city, I do not seek to be justified for taking
this liberty, because I write to you in confidence; for I never say
any thing of a third person, which I would not aver to his face; and
all I write to you concerning the Parisians, is no more than a
repetition of what I daily advance in conversation with themselves:
however, they are not displeased with me, and they even join with me
in many particulars. They complain of our _Muralt_; I am persuaded,
they see, and are convinced, how much he hated them, even in his
panegyricks; but, I am much mistaken, if, in my criticism they do not
perceive the contrary. The esteem and gratitude their generosity
inspires, but increases my freedom; it may be serviceable to some of
them, and, if I may judge from their manner of receiving truth from my
lips, they do not think me below their regard. When this is the case,
my Eloisa, true censure is more laudable than even true praise; for
that only serves to corrupt the heart of those on whom it is bestowed,
and there are none so eager to obtain it as the most worthless; on the