contrary, censure may be useful, and can only be endured by the most
deserving. I sincerely own, I honour the French as the only people in
the world who really love their fellow creatures, and who are
naturally benevolent; but, for this very reason, I am less inclined to
grant them that general admiration they seem to expect, even for the
faults they acknowledge. If the French had no virtues, I should not
mention them; if they had no vices they would not be men: they have
too many excellent qualities for indiscriminate praise.
As to the attempts you mention, they are impracticable, because I
should be obliged to use means which are not only inconvenient, but
which you have also interdicted. Republican austerity is not in vogue
here; they need more flexible virtues, which are more easily adapted
to the interest of their friends or patrons. They respect merit, I
confess, but the talents that acquire reputation are very different
from those which lead to fortune; and, if I am so unfortunate as to
possess the latter only, will Eloisa consent to become the wife of an
adventurer? In England it is quite the contrary, and though their
manners are perhaps less refined than in France, yet they rise to
fortune by more honourable steps, because the people having more share
in the government, public esteem is of more consequence. You are not
ignorant of what Lord B---- proposed to do for me, and of my intention
to justify his zeal. I can have no objection to any spot on the globe
except its distance from you. O Eloisa! if it is difficult to procure
your hand, it is still more difficult to deserve so great a blessing,
and yet, methinks, ’tis a noble task.
The good account you give of your mother’s health, relieved me from
the greatest anxiety. I perceived your distress, even before my
departure, and therefore I durst not express my fears; but I thought
her so changed, that I was apprehensive she would fall into some
dangerous illness, Be careful of her, because she is dear to me,
be cause my heart reveres her, because all my hopes are centered in
her goodness, and because she is the mother of my Eloisa.
As for the two suitors, I own, I do not like to hear of them, even in
jest; but the manner in which you mention them expels my fears, and I
will no longer hate these unfortunate pretenders, since you imagine
they are hated by you: yet I admire your simplicity in believing
yourself capable of hatred. Don’t you perceive that what you take for
hatred, is nothing more than the impatience of insulted love? thus
anxious mourns the amorous turtle when its beloved mate is in danger
of being caught. No, Eloisa, no, incomparable maid! when you are
capable of hatred, I may cease to love you.
P. S. Beset by two importunate rivals! how I pity you! for your own
sake, hasten their dismission.
Letter LXXXV. From Eloisa.