My poor cousin’s distress is not to be conceived. No idea can be
formed of it without seeing her. Her heart seems stifled with grief,
and the violence of the sensations by which it is oppressed, gives her
an air of stupidity more terrifying than the most piercing cries. She
continues night and day by her mother’s bed, with a mournful look, her
eyes fixed on the floor, and profoundly silent; yet serving her with
greater attention and vivacity than ever; then instantly relapsing
into a state of dejection, she appears to be no longer the same
person. It is very evident, that the mother’s illness supports the
spirits of her daughter; and if an ardent desire to serve her did not
give her strength, the extinguished lustre of her eyes, her paleness,
her extreme grief, make me apprehensive she would stand in great need
of the assistance she bestows. My aunt likewise perceives it, and I
see from the earnestness with which she recommends Eloisa’s health to
my care, how her poor heart is agitated, and how much reason we have
to hate you for disturbing such a pleasing union.
This anxiety is still increased by the care of hiding from a
passionate father, a dangerous secret, which the mother, who trembles
for the life of her daughter, would conceal. She has resolved to
observe in his presence their former familiarity; but if maternal
tenderness with pleasure takes advantage of this pretext, a daughter
filled with confusion, dares not yield her heart to caresses which she
believes feigned, and which are the more painful, in proportion as
they would be engaging, could she presume to think them real. At the
fond caresses of her father she looks towards her mother with an air
so tender, and so humble, that she seems to say: Ah! why am I not
still worthy of your tenderness!