O divine maid! I often tenderly exclaimed, that we might spend our
days in there unfrequented mountains, unenvied and unknown! Why can I
not here collect my whole soul into thee alone, and become, in turn,
the universe to Eloisa! Thy charms would then receive the homage they
deserve; then would our hearts taste without interruption the
delicious fruit of the soft passion with which they are filled: the
years of our long elysium would pass away untold, and when the frigid
hand of age should have calmed our first transports, the constant
habit of thinking and acting from the same principle would beget a
lasting friendship no less tender than our love, whose vacant place
should be filled by the kindred sentiments which grew and were
nourished with it in our youth. Like this happy people, we would
practice every duty of humanity, we would unite in acts of
benevolence, and at last die with the satisfaction of not having lived
in vain.
Hark----it is the post. I will close my letter, and fly to receive
another from Eloisa. How my heart beats? Why was I roused from my
reverie? I was happy at least in idea. Heaven only knows what I am to
be in reality.
Letter XXIV. To Eloisa.
I sit down to give you an immediate answer to that article of your
letter concerning the stipend; thank God, it requires no reflection.
My sentiments, my Eloisa, on this subject, are these.
In what is called honour, there is a material distinction between that
which is founded on the opinion of the world, and that which is
derived from self esteem. The first is nothing but the loud voice of
foolish prejudice, which has no more stability than the wind; but the
basis of the latter is fixed in the eternal truth of morality. The
honour of the world may be of advantage with regard to fortune but as
it cannot reach the soul, it has no influence on real happiness. True
honour, on the contrary, is the very essence of felicity; for it is
that alone inspires the permanent interior satisfaction which
constitutes the happiness of a rational being. Let us, my Eloisa,
apply these principles to your question, and it will be soon resolved.
To become an instructor of philosophy, and like the fool in the fable,
receive money for teaching wisdom, will appear rather low in the eyes
of the world, and, I own, has something in it ridiculous enough. Yet,
as no man can subsist merely of himself, and as there can be nothing
wrong in eating the fruit of one’s labour, we will regard this opinion
of mankind as a piece of foolish prejudice, to which it would be
madness to sacrifice our happiness. I know you will not esteem me the
less on this account, nor shall I deserve more pity for living upon
the talents I have cultivated.