But, my Eloisa, there are other things to be considered. Let us leave
the multitude and look a little into ourselves. What shall I in
reality be to your father, in receiving from him a salary for
instructing his daughter? Am I not from that moment a mercenary, a
hireling, a servant? and do I not tacitly pledge my faith for his
security, like the meanest of his domestics? Now what has a father to
lose of greater value than his only daughter, even though she were not
an Eloisa? and what should the man do who had thus pledged his faith
and sold his service? Ought he to stifle the flame within his breast?
Ah! Eloisa, that you know to be impossible: or should he rather
indulge this passion, and wound, in the most sensible part, the man
who has an undoubted right to his fidelity? In this case I behold a
perfidious teacher, trampling under foot every sacred bond of society,
[9] a seducer, a domestic traitor, whom the law hath justly condemned
to die. I hope Eloisa understands me. I do not fear death, but the
ignominy of deserving it, and my own contempt.
When the letters of your name’s sake and Abelard fell into your hands,
you remember my opinion of the conduct of that priest. I always pitied
Eloisa; she had a heart made for love: but Abelard seemed to deserve
his fate, as he was a stranger both to love and virtue. Ought I then
to follow his example? What wretch dares preach that virtue which he
will not practise? Whosoever suffers himself to be thus blinded by his
passions, will soon find himself punished in a loathing for those very
sensations to which he sacrificed his honour. There can be no pleasure
in any enjoyment which the heart cannot approve, and which tends to
sink in our estimation the object of our love. Abstract the idea of
perfection, and our enthusiasm vanishes: take away our esteem, and
love is at an end. How is it possible for a woman to honour a man who
dishonours himself? and how can he adore the person who was weak
enough to abandon herself to a vile seducer? Mutual contempt therefore
is the consequence; their very passions will grow burthensome, and
they will have lost their honour without finding happiness.
But how different, my Eloisa, is it with two lovers of the same age,
influenced by the same passion, united by the same bonds, under no
particular engagements, and both in possession of their original
liberty. The most severe laws can inflict no other punishment, than
the natural consequences of their passion: their sole obligation is to
love eternally; and if there be in the world some unhappy climate
where men’s authority dares to break such sacred bonds, they are
surely punished by the crimes that must inevitably ensue.