I very clearly foresaw what your sentiments would be, and indeed the
time we have known each other, had been spent to little purpose, if
now our conjectures were vague or uncertain. If virtue ever should
forsake us, be assured, it will not, cannot be in those instances,
which require resolution and resignation. [10] When the assault is
violent, the first step to be taken is, resistance; and we shall ever
triumph, I hope, so long as we are forewarned of our danger. A taste
of careless security is the most to be dreaded, and we may be taken by
sap, e’er we perceive that the citadel is attacked. The most fatal
circumstance of all, is the continuance of misfortunes; their very
duration makes them dangerous to a mind that might bear up against the
sharpest trials and most vigorous sudden onsets; it may be worn out by
the tedious pressure of inferior sufferings, and give way to the
length of those afflictions which have quite exhausted its
forbearance. This struggle, my dear friend, falls to our lot. We are
not called upon to signalize ourselves by deeds of heroism, or
renowned exploits; but we are bound to the more painful task of
supporting an indefatigable resistance, and enduring misfortunes
without the least relaxation.
I foresaw but too well the melancholy event. Our happiness is passed
away like a morning cloud, and our trials are beginning without the
least prospect of any alteration for the better. Every circumstance is
to me an aggravation of my distress, and what at other times would
have passed unheeded and unobserved, now serves but too plainly to
increase my dismay: my body sympathises with my mind in distressed
situation, the one is as languid and spiritless as the other is
alarmed and apprehensive. Involuntary tears are ever stealing down my
cheeks, without my being sensible of any immediate cause of sorrow. I
do not indeed foresee any very distressful events, but I perceive,
alas, too well, my fondest hopes blasted, my most sanguine
expectations continually disappointed, and what good purpose can it
serve to water the leaves, when the plant is decayed and withered at
the root.