These, my ever prudent and virtuous Eloisa, are many reasons; they are
indeed but a frigid commentary on those which you urged with so much
spirit and energy in one of your letters; but they are sufficient to
shew you how entirely I am of your opinion. You remember that I did
not persist in refusing your offer, and that notwithstanding the first
scruples of prejudice, being convinced that it was not inconsistent
with my honour, I consented to open the box. But in the present case,
my duty, my reason, my love, all speak too plainly to be
misunderstood. If I must chose between my honour and Eloisa, my heart
is prepared to resign her. Oh I love her too well to purchase her at
the price of my honour!
Letter XXV. From Eloisa.
You will easily believe, my dear friend, how extremely I was
entertained with the agreeable account of your late tour. The elegance
of the detail itself, would have engaged my esteem, even though its
author had been wholly a stranger; but its coming from you, was a
circumstance of additional recommendation. I could, however, find in
my heart to chide you for a certain part of it, which you will easily
guess, though I could scarce refrain from laughing at the ridiculous
finesse you made use of to shelter yourself under Tasso. Have you
never really perceived the wide difference that should be made between
a narration intended for the view of the public, and that little
sketch of particulars which is solely to be referred to the inspection
of your mistress. Or is love, with all its fears, doubts, jealousies,
and scruples, to have no more regard paid to it than the mere
decencies of good breeding are entitled to? Could you be at a moment’s
loss to conceive that the dry preciseness of an author must be
displeasing, where the passionate sentiments of inspiring tenderness
were expected? And could you deliberately resolve to disappoint my
expectations? But I fear I have already said too much on a subject
which perhaps had better been entirely passed over. Besides, the
contents of your last letter have so closely engaged my thoughts, that
I have had no leisure to attend to the particulars of the
former. Leaving then, my dear friend, the Valais to some future
opportunity, let us now fix our attention on what more immediately
concerns ourselves; we shall find sufficient matter of employment.