The Confessions of Jean Jacques Rousseau — Complete — Jean-Jacques Rousseau — John Shaqi
The Confessions of Jean Jacques Rousseau — Complete
Jean-Jacques Rousseau · en
This little piece, which, it is true, was but indifferently written;
did not want for salt, and announced a turn for satire; it is,
notwithstanding, the only satirical writing that ever came from my pen.
I have too little hatred in my heart to take advantage of such a talent;
but I believe it may be judged from those controversies, in which from
time to time I have been engaged in my own defence, that had I been of
a vindictive disposition, my adversaries would rarely have had the
laughter on their side.
What I most regret, is not having kept a journal of my travels, being
conscious that a number of interesting details have slipped my memory;
for never did I exist so completely, never live so thoroughly, never was
so much myself, if I dare use the expression, as in those journeys made
on foot. Walking animates and enlivens my spirits; I can hardly think
when in a state of inactivity; my body must be exercised to make my
judgment active. The view of a fine country, a succession of agreeable
prospects, a free air, a good appetite, and the health I gained by
walking; the freedom of inns, and the distance from everything that can
make me recollect the dependence of my situation, conspire to free my
soul, and give boldness to my thoughts, throwing me, in a manner, into
the immensity of beings, where I combine, choose and appropriate them
to my fancy, without constraint or fear. I dispose of all nature as
I please; my heart wandering from object to object, approximates and
unites with those that please it, is surrounded by charming images, and
becomes intoxicated with delicious sensations. If, attempting to render
these permanent, I am amused in describing to myself, what glow of
coloring, what energy of expression, do I give them!--It has been
said, that all these are to be found in my works, though written in the
decline of life. Oh! had those of my early youth been seen, those made
during my travels, composed, but never written!--Why did I not write
them? will be asked; and why should I have written them? I may answer.
Why deprive myself of the actual charm of my enjoyments to inform others
what I enjoyed? What to me were readers, the public, or all the world,
while I was mounting the empyrean. Besides, did I carry pens, paper
and ink with me? Had I recollected all these, not a thought would have
occurred worth preserving. I do not foresee when I shall have ideas;
they come when they please, and not when I call for them; either they
avoid me altogether, or rushing in crowds, overwhelm me with their force
and number. Ten volumes a day would not suffice barely to enumerate
my thoughts; how then should I find time to write them? In stopping, I
thought of nothing but a hearty dinner; on departing, of nothing but a
charming walk; I felt that a new paradise awaited me at the door, and
eagerly leaped forward to enjoy it.