The Confessions of Jean Jacques Rousseau — Complete
Jean-Jacques Rousseau · en
I became acquainted with the particulars I have just related, in
those conversations which succeeded our union, and alone rendered it
delicious. She was right when she concluded her complaisance would be
useful to me; I derived great advantages from it in point of useful
instruction. Hitherto she had used me as a child, she now began to treat
me as a man, and entertain me with accounts of herself. Everything she
said was so interesting, and I was so sensibly touched with it, that,
reasoning with myself, I applied these confidential relations to my
own improvement and received more instruction from them than from her
teaching. When we truly feel that the heart speaks, our own opens
to receive its instructions, nor can all the pompous morality of
a pedagogue have half the effect that is produced by the tender,
affectionate, and artless conversation of a sensible woman on him who
loves her.
The intimacy in which I lived with Madam de Warens, having placed me
more advantageously in her opinion than formerly, she began to think
(notwithstanding my awkward manner) that I deserved cultivation for
the polite world, and that if I could one day show myself there in an
eligible situation, I should soon be able to make my way. In consequence
of this idea, she set about forming not only my judgment, but my
address, endeavoring to render me amiable, as well as estimable; and if
it is true that success in this world is consistent with strict virtue
(which, for my part, I do not believe), I am certain there is no other
road than that she had taken, and wished to point out to me. For Madam
de Warens knew mankind, and understood exquisitely well the art of
treating all ranks, without falsehood, and without imprudence, neither
deceiving nor provoking them; but this art was rather in her disposition
than her precepts, she knew better how to practise than explain it, and
I was of all the world the least calculated to become master of such an
attainment; accordingly, the means employed for this purpose were nearly
lost labor, as well as the pains she took to procure me a fencing and a
dancing master.