The Confessions of Jean Jacques Rousseau — Complete — Jean-Jacques Rousseau — John Shaqi
The Confessions of Jean Jacques Rousseau — Complete
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I am less tempted by money than by other objects, because between
the moment of possessing the money and that of using it to obtain the
desired object there is always an interval, however short; whereas to
possess the thing is to enjoy it. I see a thing and it tempts me; but if
I see not the thing itself but only the means of acquiring it, I am not
tempted. Therefore it is that I have been a pilferer, and am so even
now, in the way of mere trifles to which I take a fancy, and which I
find it easier to take than to ask for; but I never in my life recollect
having taken a farthing from any one, except about fifteen years ago,
when I stole seven francs and ten sous. The story is worth recounting,
as it exhibits a concurrence of ignorance and stupidity I should
scarcely credit, did it relate to any but myself.
It was in Paris: I was walking with M. de Franceul at the Palais Royal;
he pulled out his watch, he looked at it, and said to me, “Suppose we
go to the opera?”--“With all my heart.” We go: he takes two box tickets,
gives me one, and enters himself with the other; I follow, find the door
crowded; and, looking in, see every one standing; judging, therefore,
that M. de Franceul might suppose me concealed by the company, I go out,
ask for my ticket, and, getting the money returned, leave the house,
without considering, that by then I had reached the door every one would
be seated, and M. de Franceul might readily perceive I was not there.
As nothing could be more opposite to my natural inclination than this
abominable meanness, I note it, to show there are moments of delirium
when men ought not to be judged by their actions: this was not stealing
the money, it was only stealing the use of it, and was the more infamous
for wanting the excuse of a temptation.
I should never end these accounts, was I to describe all the gradations
through which I passed, during my apprenticeship, from the sublimity of
a hero to the baseness of a villain. Though I entered into most of the
vices of my situation, I had no relish for its pleasures; the amusements
of my companions were displeasing, and when too much restraint had made
my business wearisome, I had nothing to amuse me. This renewed my taste
for reading which had long been neglected. I thus committed a fresh
offence, books made me neglect my work, and brought on additional
punishment, while inclination, strengthened by constraint, became an
unconquerable passion. La Tribu, a well-known librarian, furnished me
with all kinds; good or bad, I perused them with avidity, and without
discrimination.