English fiction -- 20th century; Sea stories, English; War stories, English; World War, 1914-1918 -- Fiction
"Graeme," she said, "I am at a loss to know why you should adopt this
tone. If it is intended to be in keeping with a pose which your
profession requires of you, I can only say that it ill becomes a
guest before this hearth."
There was a genuinely hurt tone in the lady's voice--which, indeed,
trembled a little. This note of unconscious pathos moved Graeme to
one of his rare attempts at self-revelation. He knew she was fond of
him in her preoccupied, hard way, and was more concerned about his
"lone wolf" attitude towards the amenities of civilised life, as she
understood them, than she was capable of putting into words.
"Emily," he said, "'tisn't a pose. 'Fore God it's no pose. Call me
what you like--intolerant, idealistic, or whatever long word meets my
case. Fact remains, I can't stick that type of woman. They shock
me, Emily, in the way blasphemy and drunkenness shock you. All my
life long--for fifteen years at least--I've lived in ships with men
as my sole companions--raucous-voiced, hairy-chested, buck men, my
dear; every blessed type; selfish men and unselfish ones, drunkards,
bullies, cranks, wise men and fools. 'Tisn't that one doesn't like
'em at heart, most of 'em. Some are lovable; but one gets into the
way of thinking women must be somehow utterly different. When I went
to sea I thought all women in the world must be like what I could
remember of Mother--" unconsciously his voice changed. "I went on
thinking so for some years, chiefly because I never met any women to
speak to. The more I saw of men the more I felt convinced that women
must be wonderful ... their voices..."
The speaker pulled out a ragged tobacco pouch and slowly fell to
filling his pipe.
"Course, as time went on I met women--of a sort--but they didn't
disillusion me. They strengthened my conviction that the--er--other
sort must be all I'd dreamed they were. Trouble was I never met any.
I haven't any parlour tricks--too shy----"
For a few moments the lighting of his pipe occupied the speaker's
attention. He enveloped himself in wreaths of smoke.
"I wonder why--I wonder how girls--ladies, I mean, to use an
old-fashioned word--get like that Josephine Smedley; flicking
cigarette ash about and grimacing when they talk. They don't seem
able to say anything without George Robey's slang to help 'em, or to
finish a sentence without a laugh like a third-rate barmaid's. I
believe subalterns describe them as 'sports.' They aren't men,
though they try to ape men; they aren't women--they aren't--oh God!
how I hate the type!"
Lady Manners rose. There was in her aristocratic, rather narrow
face, a suspicion that her relative had been drinking. Once on a
previous visit the idealist had been driven by boredom to seek
entertainment in the village tavern, and, while adding considerably
to his popularity amongst the rustic toss-pots, returned smelling
insufferably of beer.
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