Brazil -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Short stories, Brazilian -- Translations into English
Ah! Who can depict the secret chagrin of an old maid who sees pass by
in useless monotony her dark, loveless, despairing days, without hope
even of some event of personal interest, while about her moves the busy
whirl of happier creatures whose life has but one goal, who feel
emotions and tendernesses, and who look upon her simply as an obscure
accessory in the household's affairs! They all loved her, of course,
but not one of them suspected that she, too, could cherish those
aspirations that are common to all human beings.
Her self-denial seemed to be a most natural thing; indeed, they hardly
considered her in the light of a living person; she was no longer of
any consequence.
This was an attitude that satisfied the general egotism of the family,
and to which they all had grown accustomed, never suspecting the
grievous aspect of her sacrifice which was hidden by a sentiment of
proud dignity.
So, when they would go to the theatre, and the box held only
five--Engracigna, her husband, Fabio, and the three young
ladies,--Maria-Jose knew beforehand that her sister, snugly wrapped in
her opera-cloak, would come to her and say gently, in that purring
voice of hers: "You'll stay at home with the children tonight, won't
you, Zeze? Little Paul isn't very well, and I wouldn't think of leaving
him with anybody else...."
And she would remain behind, without betraying the revolt within her
which, upon each occasion of these evidences of selfishness, would make
the anemic blood in her veins tremble with agitation.
Alone in the dining-room she would ply her needle mechanically, while
her nephews would amuse themselves with the toys scattered upon the
table,--colored pictures and lead soldiers. Every other moment they
would call her.
"Aunt Zeze, look at George pinching me!"
"I am not! Paul hit me first!..."
And the good aunt would quiet them. Then, after both had been put to
sleep in their little twin beds, she would rest her elbows upon the
window-sill of her gloomy old-maid's room, and placing both hands
beneath her sharp chin, her gaze directed towards heaven, she would
lose herself in contemplation of the stars that shone in the limpid
sky, less lonely, surely, than she upon earth. In vain did her eyes
seek in the eyes of another that expression of sympathy and tenderness
which alone would console her....
The truth is that Maria-Jose was suffering from the disappointment of
unrequited passion. She had fallen in love with Monjardin, a poet and
great friend of her brother-in-law, Fabio. Monjardin came to the house
every Sunday.
Older than she, almost forty, but having preserved all the
attractiveness of youth,--a black moustache, a vigorous, yet graceful
figure, eyes still bright, charming and wide-awake,--Monjardin, without
knowing it, had conquered Zeze.
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