England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
like stains on the half-transparent flesh. Her hair had been pushed away
under a cap, which had come loose, and only half confined the soft
golden brown locks, which had not lost their lustre; she had thrown out
one arm from under the bedclothes, which lay on the white coverlet, an
ivory hand, half visible only through the lace and needlework of the
sleeve. With what wondering awe and pity Cara looked at her--pity which
was inexpressible, like all profound childish sentiments! Poor mamma!
who suffered as she? for whom else did God permit the laws of truth to
be broken? She was very fond of her beautiful mother, proud of her, and
oh, so piteously sorry for her. Why should she be ill--she who hated it
so much? Cara herself now and then was ill, and had to put up with it,
without making any fuss. But mamma was different. The still child
watched with a pity which was unfathomable, and beyond the reach of
words.
The room was very still; it was at the back of the house, looking out
upon nothing but gardens; so quiet that you could not have thought you
were within reach of the full torrent of London life. The little
_pétillement_ of the fire, the occasional soft falling of the ashes, the
ticking of the small, soft-toned clock, were the only audible sounds. It
was a warm spring afternoon, and, but that Mrs. Beresford liked to see
it, there was no need for a fire. It made the room warm and drowsy. How
it was that, amid all her confused and troubled thoughts, such a
reflective child as little Cara should have got drowsy too, who can
tell? The stillness and quiet were unusual to her. She was leaning back
against nurse’s chair, her feet curled up, her small frame entirely
contained within it, her mother sleeping beside her, the room very
still, with those soft rhythms of periodic sound. All at once she came
to herself in a moment, after a lapse, the duration of which she knew
nothing of. It was the sound of voices which roused her. Her mother
speaking--her father, though how he got there she could not tell,
standing very haggard and pale, in front of the fire.
‘You said you would tell me--oh, tell me the truth! I am tired of
waiting, and of uncertainty. James, in pity, the truth!’
‘Yes, my darling; but they came--to no decision. It is so long since Sir
William saw you. You could not bear him, you know. He must come
again--he must have time----’
‘James! You are not telling me the truth!’
Cara saw that her father turned round to the fire, and held out his
hands to it, as if he were cold. That change made his voice sound
further away. ‘Annie, Annie! do you think I would deceive you?’ he said,
faltering. Neither of them knew that the child was there behind the
curtain, but of that Cara never thought.
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