Daughters of Belgravia; vol. 2 of 3Fraser, Alexander, Mrs.
General
Daughters of Belgravia; vol. 2 of 3
Fraser, Alexander, Mrs.
Fiction
“But _you_ didn’t. Surely you didn’t, Carl! You know I don’t care for
Lord Delaval--and that I love _you_!” she whispers, _les larmes au
voix_.
He looks down at her sweet downcast face. It is a face bathed in
blushes. For Zai always blushes when she tells him all that is in her
heart. But she need say nothing. He has only to look at her face, which
tells its story of love with exceeding clearness and sweetness to his
vain, incense-loving eyes.
“Zai! do you really love me so very much?”
He asks the question from sheer selfishness and a desire for incense to
his overweening vanity. He knows he has sought this opportunity to tell
her something which will break her heart. But no--hearts are tough
things, and do not break easily. But something which will surely wreck
her implicit child-like faith in the fidelity and sincerity of all men.
Never after to-night will Zai Beranger perhaps feel that loving words
and honest words are twins. Rather she will shrink from them, knowing
that they may be uttered only to betray.
Now she believes in Carlton Conway with her whole soul. And when he
asks:
“Zai! do you really love me so very much?”
She lets both white arms form a circle for his neck, and woos him to
touch her red lips.
For one moment she forgets her maidenly reserve, and only remembers that
in her own eyes she is his wife--in heart, if not in name.
“Oh Carl! Carl! let us marry at once--dear! and then no one can come
between us two!”
“We cannot!” he says hastily.
Zai starts as if she were shot, and covers her face with her two little
hands, while a burning blush surges over it.
It comes to her suddenly, the terrible, terrible shame, of _her_ having
asked--of _his_ rejection--and then the colour leaves her cheek.
She leans against the balustrade, with the moonlight falling on a face
white as undriven snow. Her eyes have a dumb misery in their depths, and
her mouth quivers like a child’s.
“Oh Zai! forgive me if I hurt you by saying we cannot marry!” he
whispers brokenly, for her white face and trembling lips move him
strangely, worldling as he is. “You know very well how I am placed! I
have nothing but my salary, and that is dependent on health; and if I
don’t marry some girl with money, I don’t know what will become of me,
Zai!”
A deep silence ensues for a minute or two. Up above the glorious moon
sails serenely along, and a few feathery clouds float athwart the great
sapphire plain of sky. From within, the sound of music is carried out on
the fragrant night, but human eyes and human voices are nowhere near.
These two are alone, entirely alone, on this isolated balcony, and they
have for many months played at making love.
Listen then in what passionate words Belgravians and worldlings say
farewell, if farewell must be said by them.
We all know that Romeo and Juliet would not have said it, but they were
foolish inconsequent young people, who fortunately did not live to test
the agreeabilities of a narrow income.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account