"Yes, I shall stay," Aschenbach thought. "Where would things be better?"
And his hands folded in his lap, he let his eyes lose themselves in the
expanses of the sea, his gaze gliding, swimming, and failing in the
monotone mist of the wilderness of space. He loved the ocean for
deep-seated reasons: because of that yearning for rest, when the
hard-pressed artist hungers to shut out the exacting multiplicities of
experience and hide himself on the breast of the simple, the vast; and
because of a forbidden hankering--seductive, by virtue of its being
directly opposed to his obligations--after the incommunicable, the
incommensurate, the eternal, the non-existent. To be at rest in the face
of perfection is the hunger of everyone who is aiming at excellence; and
what is the non-existent but a form of perfection? But now, just as his
dreams were so far out in vacancy, suddenly the horizontal fringe of the
sea was broken by a human figure; and as he brought his eyes back from
the unbounded, and focussed them, it was the lovely boy who was there,
coming from the left and passing him on the sand. He was barefooted,
ready for wading, his slender legs exposed above the knees; he walked
slowly, but as lightly and proudly as though it were the customary thing
for him to move about without shoes; and he was looking around him
towards the line of bathing houses opposite. But as soon as he had
noticed the Russian family, occupied with their own harmony and
contentment, a cloud of scorn and detestation passed over his face. His
brow darkened, his mouth was compressed, he gave his lips an embittered
twist to one side so that the cheek was distorted, and the forehead
became so heavily furrowed that the eyes seemed sunken beneath its
pressure: malicious and glowering, they spoke the language of hate. He
looked down, looked back once more threateningly, then with his shoulder
made an abrupt gesture of disdain and dismissal, and left the enemy
behind him.
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