I had been on the point of calling the child Lady Pym, and she was his
daughter! Fool that I had been!
“Because they simper and attitudinise,” said Sir Roderick. “If they
behaved as sensibly as men I should like them as well.”
“That’s not saying very much,” said Lilia, with an amused look at me.
“Papa is not enamoured of his fellow-men.”
“Do you want me to be hail-fellow well-met with Tom, Dick, and Harry?”
he said, frowning at the daughter who was so unlike him that I began to
think more charitably of my mistake.
“You know I don’t. I like you just as you are!” said his daughter,
looking adorable with an infantine smile of love and trust brightening
her sweet face.
It was like a personal sunshine. I felt it so, later, when she deigned
to shine upon me; and every time it humbled me, and made me feel coarse,
clumsy, unworthy, a very clod; and now it, or the memory of it, comes
back here—it shines suddenly upon a poor sufferer’s face upon the
pillow, and the patient vanishes and I see Lilia.
This won’t do. I must return to my statement.
After luncheon, Sir Roderick sent me out into the grounds with his
daughter. From first to last he purposely threw us together. What his
motive was I cannot imagine. Motive he has: I have seen enough to know
that he never acts without one.
Lilia told me so much as we wandered, first about the Italian garden
just outside the dining-room windows, then across the lawns into the
pinewoods. It was so difficult to check her childish confidences, which
she poured out as a little creature just finding the use of its tongue
will babble as it trots along holding one’s hand. They treated me, all
of them, at the Pinewood, except one, of whom more presently, with
simple trust; even Nero, the old mastiff, slouched along at our heels
with his big tongue out, panting, as if I were an old friend. I must
never, even in thought, betray that trust. I must never forget that to
aspire would be a breach of that sacred confidence—never, never! On this
subject I pray, as the octogenarian said in Dickens’ _Haunted Man_,
“Lord, keep my memory green!”
She talked of her father—well and good.
“Papa has no patience with frivolity,” she said. “He only has sympathy
with people who do their duty. That is what every one ought to feel, is
it not? Ah! I thought you would say ‘Yes.’ Of course, it is much nicer
when you like doing your duty, isn’t it? Those old men who come here and
beetle-hunt and botanise, or go poring over the books in the library,
not only like what they have to do in life, they love it. I do envy
them.”
“But you—you like your life, do you not?” I asked.
Just then we came to a clearing in the wood. A giant pine, lately
felled, lay prone among the ferns and mosses. She stopped.
“Let us sit down a moment,” she said; “you take my breath away.”
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