Bildungsromans; Psychological fiction; Young women -- Fiction
Julian said privately that he intended to write an opera. It was too
thrilling for words. He had already composed a lovely thing called
‘Spring’ with trills, and an imitation of a cuckoo recurring in it. It
was wonderful,--exactly like a real cuckoo. Another composition was
called ‘The Dance of the Stag-Beetles.’ That was very funny. You simply
saw the stag-beetles lumping solemnly round. It made everybody
laugh--even the grandmother. Then Roddy invented a dance for it which
was as funny as the music; and it became a regular thing to be done on
rainy days. Julian himself preferred ‘Spring.’ He said it was a bigger
thing altogether.
* * * * *
Roddy was the queerest little boy. He was the most unreal and thrilling
of all because he was there so rarely. His parents were not dead like
Julian’s and Charlie’s, or abroad like Martin’s or divorced and
disgraced like Mariella’s. (Mariella’s mother had run away with a
Russian Pole, whatever that was, when Mariella was a baby; and after
that her father ... there Nurse had broken off impressively and tilted
an imaginary bottle to her lips when she was whispering about it to the
housemaid.)
Roddy’s parents lived in London and allowed him to come on a week’s
visit once every holiday. Roddy scarcely ever spoke. He had a pale, flat
secret face and yellow-brown eyes with a twinkling light remote at the
back of them. He had a ruffled dark shining head and a queer smile that
you watched for because it was not like anyone else’s. His lip lifted
suddenly off his white teeth and then turned down at the corners in a
bitter-sweet way. When you saw it you said ‘Ah!’ to yourself, with a
little pang, and stared,--it was so queer. He had a trick of spreading
out his hands and looking at them,--brown broad hands with long crooked
fingers that were magical when they held a pencil and could draw
anything. He had another trick of rubbing his eyes with his fist like a
baby, and that made you say ‘Ah!’ too, with a melting, quick sort of
pang, wanting to touch him. His eyes fluttered in a strong light: they
were weak and set so far apart that, with their upward sweep, they
seemed to go round the corners and, seen in profile, to be set in his
head like a funny bird’s. He reminded you of something fabulous--a
Chinese fairy-story. He was thin and odd and graceful; and there was a
suggestion about him of secret animals that go about by night.
Once Judith saw a hawthorn hedge in winter, shining darkly with recent
rain. Deep in the heart of its strong maze of twigs moved a shadowy
bird pecking, darting silently about in its small mysterious confined
loneliness after a glowing berry or two. Suddenly Judith thought of
Roddy. It was ridiculous of course, but there it was: the suggestion
came of itself with the same queer pull of surprise and tenderness. A
noiseless, intent creature moving alone among small brilliancies in a
profound maze: there was--oh, what was there that was all of Roddy in
that?
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