England, My EnglandLawrence, D. H. (David Herbert)
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England, My England
Lawrence, D. H. (David Herbert)
England -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Short stories, English
Egbert could not bring himself to any more of this restoring or
renewing business. He was not aware of the fact: but awareness doesn’t
help much, anyhow. He just couldn’t. He had the stoic and epicurean
quality of his old, fine breeding. His father-in-law, however, though
he was not one bit more of a fool than Egbert, realised that since we
are here we may as well live. And so he applied himself to his own tiny
section of the social work, and to doing the best for his family, and
to leaving the rest to the ultimate will of heaven. A certain
robustness of blood made him able to go on. But sometimes even from him
spurted a sudden gall of bitterness against the world and its make-up.
And yet—he had his own will-to-succeed, and this carried him through.
He refused to ask himself what the success would amount to. It amounted
to the estate down in Hampshire, and his children lacking for nothing,
and himself of some importance in the world: and _basta!_—Basta! Basta!
Nevertheless do not let us imagine that he was a common pusher. He was
not. He knew as well as Egbert what disillusion meant. Perhaps in his
soul he had the same estimation of success. But he had a certain acrid
courage, and a certain will-to-power. In his own small circle he would
emanate power, the single power of his own blind self. With all his
spoiling of his children, he was still the father of the old English
type. He was too wise to make laws and to domineer in the abstract. But
he had kept, and all honour to him, a certain primitive dominion over
the souls of his children, the old, almost magic prestige of paternity.
There it was, still burning in him, the old smoky torch or paternal
godhead.
And in the sacred glare of this torch his children had been brought up.
He had given the girls every liberty, at last. But he had never really
let them go beyond his power. And they, venturing out into the hard
white light of our fatherless world, learned to see with the eyes of
the world. They learned to criticize their father, even, from some
effulgence of worldly white light, to see him as inferior. But this was
all very well in the head. The moment they forgot their tricks of
criticism, the old red glow of his authority came over them again. He
was not to be quenched.
Let the psychoanalysts talk about father complex. It is just a word
invented. Here was a man who had kept alive the old red flame of
fatherhood, fatherhood that had even the right to sacrifice the child
to God, like Isaac. Fatherhood that had life-and-death authority over
the children: a great natural power. And till his children could be
brought under some other great authority as girls; or could arrive at
manhood and become themselves centres of the same power, continuing the
same male mystery as men; until such time, willy-nilly, Godfrey
Marshall would keep his children.
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