England, My EnglandLawrence, D. H. (David Herbert)
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England, My England
Lawrence, D. H. (David Herbert)
England -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Short stories, English
The years went by, and instead of coming more to grips with life, he
relaxed more. He was of a subtle, sensitive, passionate nature. But he
simply _would_ not give himself to what Winifred called life, _Work_.
No, he would not go into the world and work for money. No, he just
would not. If Winifred liked to live beyond their small income—well, it
was her look-out.
And Winifred did not really want him to go out into the world to work
for money. Money became, alas, a word like a firebrand between them,
setting them both aflame with anger. But that is because we must talk
in symbols. Winifred did not really care about money. She did not care
whether he earned or did not earn anything. Only she knew she was
dependent on her father for three-fourths of the money spent for
herself and her children, that she let that be the _casus belli_, the
drawn weapon between herself and Egbert.
What did she want—what did she want? Her mother once said to her, with
that characteristic touch of irony: “Well, dear, if it is your fate to
consider the lilies, that toil not, neither do they spin, that is one
destiny among many others, and perhaps not so unpleasant as most. Why
do you take it amiss, my child?”
The mother was subtler than her children, they very rarely knew how to
answer her. So Winifred was only more confused. It was not a question
of lilies. At least, if it were a question of lilies, then her children
were the little blossoms. They at least _grew_. Doesn’t Jesus say:
“Consider the lilies _how they grow_.” Good then, she had her growing
babies. But as for that other tall, handsome flower of a father of
theirs, he was full grown already, so she did not want to spend her
life considering him in the flower of his days.
No, it was not that he didn’t earn money. It was not that he was idle.
He was _not_ idle. He was always doing something, always working away,
down at Crockham, doing little jobs. But, oh dear, the little jobs—the
garden paths—the gorgeous flowers—the chairs to mend, old chairs to
mend!
It was that he stood for nothing. If he had done something
unsuccessfully, and _lost_ what money they had! If he had but striven
with something. Nay, even if he had been wicked, a waster, she would
have been more free. She would have had something to resist, at least.
A waster stands for something, really. He says: “No, I will not aid and
abet society in this business of increase and hanging together, I will
upset the apple-cart as much as I can, in my small way.” Or else he
says: “No, I will _not_ bother about others. If I have lusts, they are
my own, and I prefer them to other people’s virtues.” So, a waster, a
scamp, takes a sort of stand. He exposes himself to opposition and
final castigation: at any rate in story-books.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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