Sick with thinking, bewildered by his own imaginings, he drove away the
chaotic vision. Exhaustion overcame him; his frenzy was worn out, though
his head was still burning, throbbing, bursting; although acute pain
shot through his brain, from his brows to his neck, as if he were being
scalped; although the blood in his temples leaped furiously in his
veins, with rhythmical torture. And in the immediate torment of physical
suffering, his pride, which was to defy Fatality, collapsed like a tower
crumbling into ruins. His imagination became vacancy; he forgot his
terrors of the future. He lay motionless, bathed in clammy sweat; his
eyes and mouth wide open; and the indecision of exhaustion cast a
softened light on all his fancies--mere delirious dreams, which could
never bear the faintest resemblance to reality. Things must go on as
they might, he lazily thought; the future was still remote; he would
think no more about it; he would let himself go with the chain of
events, link by link; it was madness to double his fists against Fate,
which was so strong--so omnipotent.
III.
The following days passed quietly enough, though a vague fear still hung
over Bertie's head. He bowed that head without further thought, but
still with a dull ferment in the depths of his heart, below the
superficial calm.
Then one day he went with Frank to the Rhodes', and Eva, taking his
hand, said:
"We shall be good friends, shall we not?"
And after she had spoken he heard her voice still ringing in his ears
like little bells. He mechanically let his velvety eyes rest on hers,
and smiled, and allowed her to lead him to a sofa, and show him designs
for furniture and patterns of curtains for their new home--her home and
Frank's. Frank himself sat a little way off talking to Sir Archibald. He
looked at them, sitting side by side, like brother and sister, on the
softly cushioned settee--their heads bent together over the rustling
pages of the pattern-book, their hands meeting from time to time. And
his brows were knit in a frown of displeasure.
And yet he laughed, and said to Eva:
"Bertie will be of the greatest use; he has far better taste than I."
And he felt as though he had spoken the words in spite of himself, or
had meant to say something quite other than this compliment, but could
not help it. All the time he was talking politics to Sir Archibald his
eyes rested on them, magnetically attracted by their familiar manner.
There was a sisterly gentleness in Eva, an emanation of sympathy for her
lover's friend, a somewhat romantic interest in the mystery of Van
Maeren's fine dark eyes and insinuating voice, and a compassion for the
deep Byronic sorrows which she attributed to him--something like the
esthetic pathos of a sentimental reader over the inexplicable woes of a
hero of romance.
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