Gothic fiction; Ireland -- History -- Rebellion of 1798 -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Romans à clef
They were alone. Lord Avondale, upon arriving, had sought her in her
own apartment: he had heard of her illness. The duke had repeatedly
implored him to return; he had at length tardily obeyed the summons.
After a silence of some moments: “Have I deserved this?” he cried.
“Oh Calantha, have I indeed deserved it?” She made no answer to this
appeal. “There was a time,” he said, “when I knew how to address
you—when the few cares and vexations, that ever intruded themselves,
were lightened by your presence; and forgotten in the kindness and
sweetness of your conversation. You were my comfort and my solace;
your wishes were what I most consulted; your opinions and inclinations
were the rule of all my actions. But I wish not to grieve you by
reminding you of a state of mutual confidence and happiness which we
never more can enjoy.
“If you have a heart,” he continued, looking at her mournfully, “it
must already be deeply wounded by the remembrance of your behaviour
to me, and can need no reproaches. The greatest to a feeling mind is
the knowledge that it has acted unworthily; that it has abused the
confidence reposed in it, and blasted the hopes of one, who relied
solely upon its affection. You have betrayed me. Oh! Calantha, had
you the heart? I will not tell you how by degrees suspicion first
entered my mind, till being more plainly informed of the cruel
truth, I attempted, but in vain, to banish every trace of you from my
affections. I have not succeeded—I cannot succeed. Triumph at hearing
this if you will. The habit of years is strong. Your image and that
of crime and dishonour, can never enter my mind together. Put me not
then to the agony of speaking to you in a manner you could not bear,
and I should repent. They say you are not yet guilty; and that the man
for whom I was abandoned has generously saved you ... but consider
the magnitude of those injuries which I have received; and think me
not harsh, if I pronounce this doom upon myself and you:—Calantha,
we must part.”
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