Gothic fiction; Ireland -- History -- Rebellion of 1798 -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Romans à clef
The stern brow gave way before these words; and the paleness of death
overspread her form. Scarce could she support herself. He continued:
“Whatever it may cost me, and much no doubt I shall suffer, I can
be firm. No importunity from others, no stratagems shall prevail.
I came, because I would not shrink from the one painful trial I had
imposed upon myself. For yours and other’s sakes, I came, because I
thought it best to break to you myself my irrevocable determination.
Too long I have felt your power: too dearly I loved you, to cast
dishonour upon your as yet unsullied name. The world may pardon, and
friends will still surround you. I will give you half of all that I
possess on earth; and I will see that you are supported and treated
with respect. You will be loved and honoured; and, more than this, our
children, Calantha, even those precious and dear ties which should
have reminded you of your duty to them, if not to me,—yes, even our
children, I will not take from you, as long as your future conduct
may authorize me in leaving them under your care. I will not tear you
from every remaining hope; nor by severity, plunge you into further
guilt; but as for him, say only that he for whom I am abandoned was
unworthy.”
As he uttered these words, the frenzy of passion for one moment shook
his frame. Calantha in terror snatched his hand. “Oh, hear me, hear me,
and be merciful!” she cried, throwing herself before his feet.—“For
God’s sake hear me.” “The injury was great,” he cried: “the villain
was masked; but the remembrance of it is deep and eternal.”
He struggled to extricate his hand from her grasp: it was cold, and
trembling.... “Calm yourself,” he at length said, recovering his
composure: “these scenes may break my heart, but they cannot alter
its purpose. I may see your tears, and while under the influence
of a woman I have loved too well, be moved to my own dishonour. I
may behold you humble, penitent, wretched, and being man, not have
strength of mind to resist.”
“And is there no hope, Avondale?” “None for me,” he replied mournfully:
“you have stabbed here even to my very heart of hearts.” “Oh, hear me!
look upon me.” “Grant that I yield, wretched woman; say that I forgive
you—that you make use of my attachment to mislead my feelings—Calantha,
can you picture to yourself the scene that must ensue? Can you look
onward into after life, and trace the progress of our melancholy
journey through it? Can you do this, and yet attempt to realize, what
I shudder even at contemplating? Unblest in each other, solitary,
suspicious, irritated, and deeply injured—if we live alone, we shall
curse the hours as they pass, and if we rush for consolation into
society, misrepresented, pointed at, derided,—oh, how shall we bear
it?”
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