Graham's Magazine, Vol. XVIII, No. 4, April 1841Various
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Graham's Magazine, Vol. XVIII, No. 4, April 1841
Various
Literature -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
“‘Alas if I am to wait till your place can be supplied by another, I
shall but live on hope to die in despair,’ said William despondingly;
‘no one can ever be the same, thoughtful, patient, affectionate,
ministering angel that you have been to all around you.’ And thus they
again parted, but which think you suffered most keenly from this
disappointment? Was it he whose love was but the episode in the striving
tale of life—who listened to the voice of affection, but as soft music
played between the acts of the great tragi-comedy of existence? No! the
shaft of pain sunk deepest in the heart of her who remained in the
seclusion of home, shut up within the narrow circle of duties which
daily, hourly reminded her of the almost hopeless nature of her
feelings.
“Time sped on and brought its usual changes. The boys grew old enough to
be provided with situations beyond the parental roof, and Fanny began to
look forward once more to a union with her lover. But in the midst of
her brightening hopes, her mother died, leaving to Fanny as her last
bequest, the charge of watching over the youth of her only sister. This
sacred duty was one which Fanny might easily have fulfilled without the
sacrifice of a single desire of her own heart, had not Mary’s failing
health rendered it a task of unceasing anxiety. An accident received in
infancy had slowly and insidiously undermined the once vigorous
constitution of the child, and soon after the mother was laid within the
tomb, an incurable disease of the spine confined Mary entirely to her
bed. It was then, with a heart bleeding over the severed ties of
kindred, that Fanny first taught herself to reflect upon the necessity
of a final sacrifice of her hopes of happiness. Her father was fast
sinking under the infirmities of age, and Mary was now helplessly
dependent on her for every comfort; how then could she indulge the vain
dream of being able to study her own welfare. There was a bitter
struggle in the heart of the poor girl ere she could bring herself to
write a letter of renunciation to William. But she swerved not her duty,
however severe might be its requisitions, and while the tears fell like
rain over the thoughts of her blighted hopes, not one drop was allowed
to blister the page which bore him her final farewell. But Fanny was
sadly mistaken when she fancied that the severest part of the conflict
was past. The letter only served to bring William in person to combat
the resolution she had formed, and she was now to endure the redoubled
anguish of beholding her lover’s sorrow. But in vain he sought to alter
her decision. She knew that instead of being a help-meet, she could now
be only a hindrance to one who was obliged to labor for his daily bread,
and her unselfish love taught her that it was for her
‘Alone to suffer and alone to strive.’
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