Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXXV, No. 2, August 1849Various
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Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXXV, No. 2, August 1849
Various
Literature -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
“Not as you put it to me, father; no, I have never dreamed or hoped that
I had any such particular gift of God, such glorious and preëminent
possession as this of which you speak. I may, indeed, have fancied at
times that there was something within me, in which I differed from
others around me—something which made me feel more joy, deeper, and
fuller, and more soul-fraught joy, than they feel; and sorrow, softer,
and moved more easily, if not more piercing or more permanent—which
made me love the world, and its inhabitants, and above all its Maker,
with a far different love from theirs—something which evermore seems
struggling within me, as if it would forth and find tongue, but cannot.
But now, that you have spoken, I know that it indeed must be as you say,
and that this unknown something is a gift, is a possession from on high.
What is this thing, my father?”
“My child, this thing is genius,” replied the old man solemnly.
The bright blood rushed back to her cheeks in a flood of crimson glory;
a strange, clear light, which never had enkindled them before, sprang
from her soft dark eyes; she leaned forward eagerly—
“Genius!” she cried. “Genius, and I! Father, you dream, dear father.”
“Would that I did; but I do not, Theresa.”
“And wherefore, if it be so, indeed, that I am so gifted, wherefore
would you alter it, my father?”
“I would not alter it,” he replied, “my little girl. Far be it from my
thoughts, weak worm that I am, to alter, even if I could alter, the
least of the gifts of the great Giver. And this, whether it be for good,
or unto evil, is one of the greatest and most glorious. I would not
alter it, Theresa. But I would guide, would direct, would moderate it. I
would accustom you to know and comprehend the vast power of which you,
all unconsciously, are the possessor. For, as I said, it is a fearful
and a perilous power. God forbid that I should pronounce the most
marvelous and godlike of the gifts which he vouchsafes to man, a curse
and not a blessing; God forbid that, even while I see how oft it is
turned into bitterness and blight by the coldness of the world, and the
check of its heaven-soaring aspirations, I should doubt that it has
within itself a sovereign balm against its own diseases, a rapture
mightier than any of its woes, an inborn and eternal consciousness which
bears it up, as on immortal pinions, above the cares of the world and
the poor consciousness of self. Nevertheless it is a perilous gift, and
too often, to your sex, a fatal one. Yet I would not alarm you, my own
child, for you have gentleness of soul, which may well temper the
coruscations of a spirit which waxes oftentimes too strong to be
womanly, and piety which shall, I trust, preserve you, should any
aspiration of your heart wax over vigorous and daring to be contented
with the limitations of humanity. In the meantime, my child, fear
nothing, follow the dictates of your own pure heart, and pray for His
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