French fiction -- 20th century; World War, 1914-1918 -- Fiction
We return. The obscurity is outstretched all around and against us.
Together and alone we go into the following chambers of the night. My
eyes follow the sway of her body in her dress against the vaguely
luminous background of the wall. Amid the night her dress is night
also; she is there--wholly! There is a singing in my ears; an anthem
fills the world.
In the street, where there are no more wayfarers, she walks on the edge
of the causeway. So that my face may be on a level with hers, I walk
beside her in the gutter, and the cold water enters my boots.
And that evening, inflated by mad longing, I am so triumphantly
confident that I do not even remember to shake her hand. By her door I
said to her, "To-morrow," and she answered, "Yes."
On one of the days which followed, finding myself free in the
afternoon, I made my way to the great populous building of flats where
she lives. I ascended two dark flights of steps, closely encaged, and
followed a long elbowed corridor. Here it is. I knock and enter.
Complete silence greets me. There is no one, and acute disappointment
runs through me.
I take some hesitant steps in the tiny vestibule, which is lighted by
the glass door to the kitchen, wherein I hear the drip of water. I see
a room whose curtains invest it with broidered light. There is a bed
in it, with a cover of sky-blue satinette shining like the blue of a
chromo. It is Marie's room! Her gray silk hat, rose-trimmed, hangs
from a nail on the flowery paper. She has not worn it since my aunt's
death; and alongside hang black dresses. I enter this bright blue
sanctuary, inhabited only by a cold and snow-like light, and orderly
and chaste as a picture.
My hand goes out like a thief's. I touch, I stroke these dresses,
which are wont to touch Marie. I turn again to the blue-veiled bed.
On a whatnot there are books, and their titles invite me; for where her
thoughts dwell, the things which occupy her mind--but I leave them. I
would rather go near her bed. With a movement at once mad, frightened
and trembling, I lift the quilts that clothe it and my gaze enters it,
and my knees lean trembling on the edge of this great lifeless thing,
which, alone among dead things, is one of soft and supple flesh.
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