It was after they had kissed that he told Natalie of his plans. “There
are three or four thousand dollars in the bank and the factory is worth
thirty or forty thousand more. I don’t know how much it is worth,
perhaps nothing at all.
“At any rate I’ll take a thousand dollars and go away with you. I
suppose I’ll leave some kind of papers making over the ownership of the
place to my wife and daughter. That would, I suppose, be the thing to
do.
“Then I’ll have to talk to my daughter, make her understand what I’m
doing and why. Well, I hardly know whether it is possible to make her
understand, but I’ll have to try. I’ll have to try to say something
that will stay in her mind so that she in her turn may learn to live
and not close and lock the doors of her being as my own doors have been
locked. It may take, you see, two or three weeks to think out what I
have to say and how to say it. My daughter Jane knows nothing. She is
an American middle-class girl and I have helped to make her that. She
is a virgin and that, I am afraid, Natalie, you do not understand.
The gods have robbed you of your virginity or perhaps it was your old
mother, drunk and calling you names, eh? That might have been a help
to you. You wanted so much to have some sweet clean thing happen to
you, to something deep down in you, that you went about with the doors
of your being opened, eh? They did not have to be torn open. Virginity
and respectability had not fastened them with bolts and locks. Your
mother must quite have killed all notion of respectability in your
family, eh Natalie? It is the most wonderful thing in the world to love
you and to know that there is something in you that would make the
notion of being cheap and second-class impossible to your lover. O, my
Natalie, you are a woman strong to be loved.”
Natalie did not answer, perhaps did not understand this outpouring
of words from him, and John Webster stopped talking and moved about
so that he stood directly facing her. They were of about the same
height and when he had come close they looked directly into each
other’s faces. He put up his hands so that they lay on her cheeks
and for a long time they stood thus, without words, looking at each
other as though they could neither of them get enough of the sight of
the face of the other. A late moon came up presently and they moved
instinctively out from under the shadow of the tree and went into a
field. They kept moving slowly along, stopping constantly and standing
thus, with his hands on her cheeks. Her body began to tremble and
the tears ran from her eyes. Then he laid her down upon the grass.
It was an experience with a woman new in his life. After their first
love-making and when their passions were spent she seemed more
beautiful to him than before.
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