they no longer required. Our friend Taylor had by this time been brought
very low, or he would have held out for something better, but there was
nothing to be done. He was starving, and he therefore accepted; came to
London; got a room, one room only, near Clare Market, and began his new
duties. He was able to pick up a shilling or two more weekly by going on
errands for the clerks during his slack time in the day, so that
altogether on the average he made up about eighteen shillings. Wandering
about the Clare Market region on Sunday he found us out, came in, and
remained constant. Naturally, as we had so few adherents, we gradually
knew these few very intimately, and Taylor would often spend a holiday or
part of the Sunday with us. He was not eminent for anything in
particular, and an educated man, selecting as his friends those only who
stand for something, would not have taken the slightest notice of him.
He had read nothing particular, and thought nothing particular—he was
indeed one of the masses—but in this respect different, that he had not
the tendency to association, aggregation, or clanship which belong to the
masses generally. He was different, of course, in all his ways from his
neighbours born and bred to Clare Market and its alleys. Although
commonplace, he had demands made upon him for an endurance by no means
commonplace, and he had sorrows which were as exquisite as those of his
betters. He did not much resent his poverty. To that I think he would
have submitted, and in fact he did submit to it cheerfully. What rankled
in him was the brutal disregard of him at the office. He was a servant
of servants. The messengers, who themselves were exposed to all the
petty tyrannies of the clerks, and dared not reply, were Taylor’s
masters, and sought a compensation for their own serfdom by making his
ten times worse. The head messenger, who had been a butler, swore at
him, and if Taylor had “answered” he would have been reported. He had
never been a person of much importance, but at least he had been
independent, and it was a new experience for him to feel that he was a
thing fit for nothing but to be cuffed and cursed. Upon this point he
used to get eloquent—as eloquent as he could be, for he had small power
of expression, and he would describe to me the despair which came over
him down in those dark vaults at the prospect of life continuing after
this fashion, and with not the minutest gleam of light even at the very
end. Nobody ever cared to know the most ordinary facts about him.
Nobody inquired whether he was married or single; nobody troubled himself
when he was ill. If he was away, his pay was stopped; and when he
returned to work nobody asked if he was better. Who can wonder that at
first, when he was an utter stranger in a strange land, he was overcome
by the situation, and that the world was to him a dungeon worse than that
of Chillon? Who can wonder that he was becoming reckless? A little more
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