Miss Ellis's MissionSmith, Mary P. Wells (Mary Prudence Wells)
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Miss Ellis's Mission
Smith, Mary P. Wells (Mary Prudence Wells)
Ellis, Sarah, 1835-1885; Home missions -- United States -- Unitarian Church
Miss Ellis little expected or would have desired to figure as a
Unitarian saint. Her estimate of herself was lowly. Whatever her faults
and limitations, however, they were only those natural to a strong
nature driven in upon itself, beating in vain against the stern walls
that everywhere surrounded it. Bravely did she strive to resist what she
clearly perceived to be the natural tendencies of her peculiar troubles,
and bravely did she succeed. The prayers, the tears, the struggles of
those lonely, baffled years are known only to God, and are only hinted
at here and there in the diary kept during a large part of her life. An
unique diary it is, showing, as nothing else could, the passion of
religious devotion which burned in her soul. Each day's record, no
matter how brief, ends with passages of Scripture, or sometimes a hymn,
appropriate to the day's mood or experience. In reading it, one realizes
afresh the richness of the Bible in comfort and strength. The diary
furnishes a complete history of the Unitarian Church of Cincinnati for
many years. All the individual joys and sorrows of its members, their
birthdays and their death-days, are here recorded with loving sympathy.
Also, a complete record of every Sunday's service for many years is
given, with always a full abstract of the sermon, sometimes filling
several pages of fine, close writing. Occasionally it happened that the
minister failed to hand Miss Sallie his sermon after delivery,--a
grievous disappointment, almost too great to bear, as the diary
testifies. Each year the personal matter grows less, the religious
meditations and quotations consume more and more space, until of the
journal in the last years her sister writes: "It seems to have been kept
mainly to give vent to her pure, spiritual nature, which was ever
longing for some expression of itself." A very few extracts are here
given from the diary,--a glimpse only of the struggles and longings that
unconsciously to herself were all fitting her for her work.
DIARY.
1873. I have been too indolent for a few years. Now I must be up
and doing, with a heart for anything, and remember that these
clouds that overshadow us all are meant to make us look beyond for
the sunshine. "No cross, no crown." I have a project in my head
that I wish very much to carry out. I am tired of my selfish life;
and all that reconciles me to it is, that I accept it as a
necessary discipline for my restless spirit, to teach me
submission, and help me to say, "Thy will, not mine, be done." My
idea of a _true_ Christian is to be working for others always, and
not thinking of self. My desire is, to start a sewing-class from
the Mission School, to be kept up during the summer, if I can only
get the means of carrying out my plan, and find some one who is
willing to take charge of it in case I am not able to be there. I
would _gladly_ make the sacrifice of personal comfort.
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