Great Britain -- History -- Charles II, 1660-1685 -- Fiction; Historical fiction
“Aye, since he cannot hear you play.”
He looked at her in silence; then, in a quick, unaccountable impulse,
placed a firm hand on her arm. “Let me go in;” and, almost to his
wonder, she acquiesced, and moved aside to admit him.
It was a fair-sized room, and quite handsomely appointed. What
luxuries the house could command seemed mostly accumulated here. There
were soft mats on the floor; jewels of stained glass let into the
diamond-paned casements; a silver lamp glowing among books and
illuminated manuscripts strewed over a table. And, in the midst, in
vivid contrast with the dark panelling, on a white bed lay a white
boy. His face, which, for its structure, might have been a pretty one,
was wasted to the bone; his eyes were prominent and of an unearthly
blue; though fifteen, he looked in weight and size less than a child
of nine. Sad, sad is it to see young life in any sickness--its
pathetic patience, its uncomplaining acceptance of its cruel,
uncomprehended heritage; but sadder is the sight of one doomed from
his cradle to pain and helplessness. To be born, like this, to death,
not life, to the visible processes of dissolution from the very
threshold of existence; to be fated never to know but by report the
meaning of health, as the blind must shape in their imaginations the
world they can never see--truly that is to suffer the worst loss of
possession, which is never to have possessed, while reading in the
happiness of others the measure of one’s own eternal deprivation. Here
was some constitutional atrophy, already, fifteen years ago, disputing
with its unborn victim the world to come, and proving, on release,
stronger than the life it clung to. The boy had been an invalid from
his birth--a lamp guttering before it was well lighted--a nativity
most fondly lending itself, one would have thought, to the triumphant
vindication of its parent doctrines. But that vindication never came;
the father could not cure his child, and there was the anguish. The
life he loved most on earth was the life that most baffled his efforts
to mend and prolong it. His arts could not even win it surcease from
the mortal languor and weariness which accompanied its dissolution. He
felt himself a hypocrite, an impostor, in the eyes that, turning to
him for relief, found only helplessness and impotence. He who to all
others was so glib in professional assurance had nothing here to offer
but empty commiseration and an agony of devotion. It was very pitiful.
Bannister, pausing a moment on the threshold, stepped softly in, with
wonder and compassion at his heart. The boy, propped up on his
pillows, regarded his entrance with shy, fascinated eyes. But the
grave face of the new-comer, its simplicity, its kindly melancholy,
were nothing but reassuring adjuncts to the midnight quiet of the
room. The musician shifted the harp from his shoulder.
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