Short stories, German -- Translations into English
“Gudule!” he said one day, when he happened to be in a particularly
good humor, “why do you let the key remain in the door of that bureau
where you keep so many valuables?”
And again Gudule regarded him with those unfathomable eyes.
“There, you’re … looking at me again!” he exclaimed with sudden
vehemence.
“They’re safe enough in the cupboard,” Gudule said, smiling, “why
should I lock it?”
“Gudule, do you mean to say …” he cried, raising his hand as for a
blow. Then he fell back in his chair, and his frame was shaken with
sobs.
“Gudule, my heart’s love,” he cried, “I am not worthy that your eyes
should rest on me. Everywhere, wherever I go, they look at me, those
eyes … and that is my ruin. If business is bad, your eyes ask me, ‘Why
did you mix yourself up with these things, without a thought of wife or
children?’… Then I feel as if some evil spirit possessed me and
tortured my soul. Oh, why can’t you look at me again as you did when
you were my bride?—then you looked so happy, so lovely! At other times
I think: ‘I shall yet grasp fortune with both hands … and then I can
face my Gudule’s eyes again.’ But now, now … oh, don’t look at me,
Gudule!”
There spoke the self-reproaching voice, which sometimes burst forth
unbidden from a suffering soul.
As for Gudule, she already knew how to appreciate this cry of her
husband’s conscience at its true value. It was not that she felt one
moment’s doubt as to its sincerity, but she knew that so far as it
affected the future, it was a mere cry and nothing more.
The years rolled on. The children were growing up. Ephraim had entered
his fifteenth year. Viola was a little pale girl of twelve. In opinion
of the Ghetto they were the most extraordinary children in the world.
In the midst of the harassing life to which her marriage with the
gambler had brought her, Gudule so reared them that they grew to be
living reflections of her own inmost being. People wondered when they
beheld the strange development of “Wild” Ascher’s children.
Their natures were as proud and reserved as that of their mother. They
did not associate with the youth of the Ghetto; it seemed as though
they were not of their kind, as though an insurmountable barrier
divided them. And many a bitter sneer was hurled at Gudule’s head.
“Does she imagine,” she often heard people whisper, “that because her
father was a farmer her children are princes? Let her remember that her
husband is but a common gambler.”
How different would have been their thoughts had they known that the
children were Gudule’s sole comfort. What their father had never heard
from her, she poured into their youthful souls. No tear their mother
shed was unobserved by them; they knew when their father had lost and
when he had won; they knew, too, all the varying moods of his unhinged
mind; and in this terrible school of misery they acquired an
instinctive intelligence, which in the eyes of strangers seemed mere
precocity.
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