French fiction -- 20th century -- Translations into English
She walked down the street, hastening her steps, tense, looking neither
to right nor left . . . the years, the years, the life that was
coming . . . that of her child, her own, the new life, the Annette of
to-morrow.
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She had this vision in her eyes on the evening when she established
herself in Sylvie's house. Sylvie, as soon as her shop was closed,
hastened to climb up to her sister's apartment to distract her from the
regrets she supposed the latter must be feeling. She found her walking
back and forth in her narrow room, not at all tired after the exhausting
day, trying to make her too diminutive cupboards hold her clothes and
her linen. Unsuccessful in this, perched on a stool, with her arms full
of sheets, looking at the filled shelves, she was meditating another
plan, whistling like a boy a Wagnerian fanfare that she absent-mindedly
travestied, giving it a burlesque turn. Sylvie looked at her and said,
"Annette, I admire you." (She did not mean quite as much as this.)
"Why?" asked Annette.
"If I were in your place, how I should rage!"
Annette began to laugh. Absorbed in her work, she made a sign to her
sister to be silent.
"I think I've got it," she said.
She buried her head and her arms in the cupboard, arranging,
disarranging, rummaging.
"I said so," she remarked, "and I have."
(She was addressing a cupboard that was full, arranged, conquered.)
She descended, victorious, from the stool.
"Rage, Sylvie?" she said. (She was holding her by the chin.) "When you
were a child you played at building houses with dominoes. When the house
fell, did you get angry?"
"I banged the dominoes on the floor," said Sylvie.
"And I said, Biff! I'll build another."
"You'll have to admit that you shook the table!"
"Well, I wouldn't swear I didn't," said Annette.
Sylvie called her an anarchist.
"What!" said Annette. "Isn't that just what you are?"
Sylvie was not. She could laugh at order and authority when she wanted
to do so, but she felt the need of order and authority. Even if it was
only to apply them to other people. For her, as for others, there was no
pleasure in revolting unless it was against some authority. And as for
order, Sylvie was well supplied with it. She did not cavil at the
established order except in so far as it was not her own. She did not
reproach it for being established. An order should be established. Since
she too was established, as an employer, directing her own business, she
was all for a stable order. Annette made this discovery with surprise.
Nor was this the only discovery she made. You do not know another human
being unless you see him in that everyday activity which brings his
energies to a head and reveals his natural movements and gestures.
Annette had never seen Sylvie except during her idle times, her times of
relaxation. Who can judge of a cat stretched out on a soft cushion? You
must see it on the warpath with its back arched and the green fire in
its eyes.
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