None can admire like a young man. Of all youth’s passions and pleasures,
this is the most common and least alloyed; and every flash of Alan’s
black eyes; every aspect of his curly head; every graceful reach, every
easy, stand-off attitude of waiting; ay, and down to his shirt-sleeves
and wrist-links, were seen by John through a luxurious glory. He valued
himself by the possession of that royal friend, hugged himself upon the
thought, and swam in warm azure; his own defects, like vanquished
difficulties, becoming things on which to plume himself. Only when he
thought of Miss Mackenzie there fell upon his mind a shadow of regret;
that young lady was worthy of better things than plain John Nicholson,
still known among schoolmates by the derisive name of ‘Fatty’; and he
felt, if he could chalk a cue, or stand at ease, with such a careless
grace as Alan, he could approach the object of his sentiments with a less
crushing sense of inferiority.
Before they parted, Alan made a proposal that was startling in the
extreme. He would be at Colette’s that night about twelve, he said. Why
should not John come there and get the money? To go to Colette’s was to
see life, indeed; it was wrong; it was against the laws; it partook, in a
very dingy manner, of adventure. Were it known, it was the sort of
exploit that disconsidered a young man for good with the more serious
classes, but gave him a standing with the riotous. And yet Colette’s was
not a hell; it could not come, without vaulting hyperbole, under the
rubric of a gilded saloon; and, if it was a sin to go there, the sin was
merely local and municipal. Colette (whose name I do not know how to
spell, for I was never in epistolary communication with that hospitable
outlaw) was simply an unlicensed publican, who gave suppers after eleven
at night, the Edinburgh hour of closing. If you belonged to a club, you
could get a much better supper at the same hour, and lose not a jot in
public esteem. But if you lacked that qualification, and were an
hungered, or inclined toward conviviality at unlawful hours, Colette’s
was your only port. You were very ill-supplied. The company was not
recruited from the Senate or the Church, though the Bar was very well
represented on the only occasion on which I flew in the face of my
country’s laws, and, taking my reputation in my hand, penetrated into
that grim supper-house. And Colette’s frequenters, thrillingly conscious
of wrong-doing and ‘that two-handed engine (the policeman) at the door,’
were perhaps inclined to somewhat feverish excess. But the place was in
no sense a very bad one; and it is somewhat strange to me, at this
distance of time, how it had acquired its dangerous repute.
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