American fiction -- 20th century; Chicago (Ill.) -- Fiction; Journalists -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction
Felix did not tell her how much he missed her. He was rather ashamed of
the fact. There was something intellectually disgraceful about a state
of dependence upon one person for companionship....
It was true, he had Clive. But he had been neglecting Clive, and now
Clive had other concerns. Clive had several times urged him to come out
over the week-end to Woods Point, where he was undertaking to spend the
winter in his summer cottage, and Felix had always had some engagement
with Rose-Ann which prevented his going. Now, when he would be glad to
accept such an invitation, it was not renewed; Clive, it appeared, was
so much interested in some girl that he had no time to spare for Felix.
And Clive was the only person about the office that he cared for; at
Community House since Rose-Ann had gone, there was no one. He wished
that he had taken the trouble to make a few more friends. It made all
the difference in the world to have some one to talk to at the day’s
end, some one to share one’s thoughts with....
Suddenly he began to find Community House intolerable. He spent his
evenings looking for a place to live. Certainly he could not be less
lonely anywhere else! And one evening, on Canal Street, in a dingy
building which had apparently once been a residence and was now rented
out room by room, he found a tiny hall-room on the third floor which he
had not the excuse of not being able to afford. He made some explanation
for leaving Community House—which it seemed was not needed, for room
there was much in demand—and moved at once into his new home.
It was a room about eight by eleven feet, hardly holding the cot-bed,
table and chair, which constituted its furnishing. He improvised a shelf
above the tiny radiator in the corner for his half-dozen books.... And
for one evening he was happy, in being away from Community House, in
being in a place of his own, in having in some way established his
independence.
And then loneliness descended upon him in a black mist, obliterating the
clear outlines of the actual world. He managed to get through the day’s
work somehow, and then he wandered about hopelessly, unseeingly, the
victim of a longing that made the very act of breathing a pain; a
longing that he could not understand—for what was Rose-Ann to him?
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He dined in various restaurants in the loop, in the vague hope of
finding some one to talk to.
One evening, as he stood in a restaurant looking about for an empty
table, he heard his name called. A young man, sitting alone, was
beckoning to him. It was Eddie Silver, a reporter of whom Felix had been
hearing much of late.
“Come over and congratulate me,” he said, grinning, “I’ve just been
fired!”
“Really? What for?” Felix asked.
“Coming down to the office crazy drunk,” said Eddie Silver proudly. “Sit
down.”
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