Brittany (France) -- Fiction; France -- History -- Medieval period, 987-1515 -- Fiction; Historical fiction; Women -- Fiction
Laure, while she looked at her mother, gave a sudden sigh, and her face
became staring pale. Eleanore strove to fathom her daughter’s look, but
could know nothing of the flood of natural desire and youth that was
oversweeping the girl. Laure’s resistance against it was silence. She
sat still, cowed and bent, while the noise of the waters filled her ears
and her heart was near to bursting with suffocation and yearning. Before
this silence, however, these passionate moments gradually ebbed away.
The wave retreated, and her heart shut tight. Words and phrases from
Holy Scriptures, books of prayer, and St. Benedict’s Rule, came crowding
to her, and she considered to herself how she might show her mother the
sin of her suggestion. But, as she had kept silence one way, so now she
practised it in the other. After the long pause her voice found itself
in three words only,—
“My mother!—madame!”
Eleanore’s eyes fell. Her hope was gone. For the thousandth time her
religion rose to shame her, before her child, for the absorbing love of
her motherhood. Presently Laure, standing before her, more like her
judge than like the disconsolate creature she had so lately comforted,
spoke again,—
“Madame, here in this place have I found contentment. There is no sorrow
and no desire when one lives but to pray and sleep, and wake and pray
again. God lives here continually in our hearts and He begets in us the
love that we bear for each other. Moreover, after my profession and
consecration, much freedom will be added to my life. I shall have no
more long hours of instruction, nor shall I be called on to do the
bidding of any one save perhaps that of the Reverend Mother. And whereas
thou ridest hither to me each fortnight, I, after my vow, may go instead
to thee, to see thee and mine ancient home.—Nay, mother, forgive me that
I rebuke thy words; but thou must not urge me thus, for my spirit is not
as yet very strong or very much tried, and is like to break under
temptation.”
Dry-eyed and straight-lipped, Eleanore rose from her place and kissed
her daughter, saying,—
“This is farewell, dear child, till thou shalt come home to me for the
first time after thy wedding with Heaven. My humble and earthly blessing
be upon thee,—and mayst thou find thy spirit strong, my Laure, when thou
shalt have need of it; as, in God’s time, thou surely wilt.”
Once again the mother kissed her girl—kissed her in final renunciation.
Laure felt a burning upon her brow long after madame had left the room.
Eleanore’s last words also somewhat affected the novice,—brought her a
dim sense of uneasiness and foreboding. But it was in silence that she
saw the black-robed figure leave the cell, and in silence she remained
for a long time after she was left alone, thinking over what had passed.
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