The fear of living : $b (La peur de vivre) — John Shaqi
The fear of living : $b (La peur de vivre)Bordeaux, Henry
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The fear of living : $b (La peur de vivre)
Bordeaux, Henry
French fiction -- Translations into English
Fear stamps the faces of the young men of the new generation, who
appear to be anxious only about their health, and who, unable to digest
except by the help of mineral waters and camomile, open their mouths
only to criticise and to disparage; who praise nothing, like nothing,
want nothing, as if they had fishes’ blood in their veins. Why all this
trouble to preserve and keep themselves, for all the good that they get
out of or contribute to life?
Could youth set less value than it does upon life? The recent suicide
of a schoolboy at Lyons added a fresh paragraph--the most terrible
of all--to the indictment of the _Déracinés_, the Uprooted
ones, against an education which ignores the facts of family, race,
locality, and country. Before going to his death the poor lad wrote on
the blackboard, “I am young, I am pure, and I am going to die.” The
teaching of his professor of philosophy had disgusted him with life.
What had they taught him? The beauty of pure reason, of science, of
humanitarianism. Instead of being told to take his proper place in the
order of things, he was called upon to destroy all in order to rebuild
all again, to make a clean slate of the past, of tradition, of the
destiny which had caused him to be born in a particular country at a
particular date, in order to create a new personality for himself, a
new universe, a new God. Besides preparing for his material future
they expected of him, as of all Frenchmen, that he should create for
himself a metaphysics, a politics, and a morality. He succumbed to
all these burdens. Life did not appear to him in a shape with exact
outlines, with beautiful lights and dark shadows, with the concomitants
of effort, joy, and sorrow, with a splendour of created things, with
privileges of working, of feeling behind one a past that one may carry
forward, and of being able to count even on the future. It was for him
a dense fog, which his reason vainly tried to pierce, in which he heard
the call neither of God, of race, nor of country. He did not see his
own importance, which was not merely individual but collective, he did
not understand that everyone’s duty is to recognise one’s own place,
that everyone’s strength and profit are to be sought in the realities
of existence on which he depends and which in their turn depend on him.
And so he learned a new fear of living.
These modern young men have sisters. I will not venture to describe
them. A Persian proverb warns us “not to strike a woman, even with a
flower.” But the poets, who have every license, even against love, have
taken on themselves the task of painting the portrait. Who does not
recall the “Lines to a Dead Woman”?
“Yes, good she was--if ’twere enough
That as she passed her hand would give,
Without God seeing, saying aught,
If gold without kind words be alms.
“She thought--if a melodious voice,
A soft and sweet, but empty sound,
Like to the murmur of a stream,
Be token of the thought behind.
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