Critics -- Fiction; Interpersonal relations -- Fiction; Secrecy -- Fiction; Short stories, American; Women novelists -- Fiction
“I DON’T quite know how to explain it to you,” he said, “but it was the
very fact that your notice of my book had a spice of intelligence, it was
just your exceptional sharpness, that produced the feeling—a very old
story with me, I beg you to believe—under the momentary influence of
which I used in speaking to that good lady the words you so naturally
resent. I don’t read the things in the newspapers unless they’re thrust
upon me as that one was—it’s always one’s best friend who does it! But I
used to read them sometimes—ten years ago. I dare say they were in
general rather stupider then; at any rate it always struck me they missed
my little point with a perfection exactly as admirable when they patted
me on the back as when they kicked me in the shins. Whenever since I’ve
happened to have a glimpse of them they were still blazing away—still
missing it, I mean, deliciously. _You_ miss it, my dear fellow, with
inimitable assurance; the fact of your being awfully clever and your
article’s being awfully nice doesn’t make a hair’s breadth of difference.
It’s quite with you rising young men,” Vereker laughed, “that I feel most
what a failure I am!”
I listened with keen interest; it grew keener as he talked. “_You_ a
failure—heavens! What then may your ‘little point’ happen to be?”
“Have I got to _tell_ you, after all these years and labours?” There was
something in the friendly reproach of this—jocosely exaggerated—that made
me, as an ardent young seeker for truth, blush to the roots of my hair.
I’m as much in the dark as ever, though I’ve grown used in a sense to my
obtuseness; at that moment, however, Vereker’s happy accent made me
appear to myself, and probably to him, a rare dunce. I was on the point
of exclaiming “Ah yes, don’t tell me: for my honour, for that of the
craft, don’t!” when he went on in a manner that showed he had read my
thought and had his own idea of the probability of our some day redeeming
ourselves. “By my little point I mean—what shall I call it?—the
particular thing I’ve written my books most _for_. Isn’t there for every
writer a particular thing of that sort, the thing that most makes him
apply himself, the thing without the effort to achieve which he wouldn’t
write at all, the very passion of his passion, the part of the business
in which, for him, the flame of art burns most intensely? Well, it’s
_that_!”
I considered a moment—that is I followed at a respectful distance, rather
gasping. I was fascinated—easily, you’ll say; but I wasn’t going after
all to be put off my guard. “Your description’s certainly beautiful, but
it doesn’t make what you describe very distinct.”
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